Exercise for when I get back to TX!

People

People

No people are uninteresting.
Their fate is like the chronicle of planets.

Nothing in them is not particular,
and planet is dissimilar from planet.

And if a man lived in obscurity
making his friends in that obscurity
obscurity is not uninteresting.

To each his world is private,
and in that world one excellent minute.

And in that world one tragic minute.
These are private.

In any man who dies there dies with him
his first snow and kiss and fight.
It goes with him.

There are left books and bridges
and painted canvas and machinery.
Whose fate is to survive.

But what has gone is also not nothing:
by the rule of the game something has gone.
Not people die but worlds die in them.

 -- Yevgeny Yevtushenko

This is the poem that I left on my future husband's
windshield, which I told about in the Marriage Meme.
You can tell that that was when I was in an
existentialist phase, wondering about God, which is
probably predictable in college and also because I was
dating an atheist.

Shalem Time

Hi. I'm still on Shalem time. We had 36 hours of silence, from Saturday night to Monday morning (today!). One friend here told me how she slept more than she expected in the day time, which reminds me of how I am when I go to Lebh Shomea, the silent retreat center in Sarita--I try to spend at least three days and nights there, because the first day I keep falling asleep! I think that deep fatigue under everything else finally surfaces in the quiet.

The silence was nice, as was the slower pace with no scheduled seminars. Though it is nice to have a longer period of silence, that is not practical when only ten days are set aside for the Shalem Residential time.

I am realizing that I came here, thinking I needed to find the "right" or Shalem way of spiritual direction. I am slowly integrating what I've been reading for the past few years; that I am to stay with my sight on God as much as possible and go from there. One man, a retired Methodist minister, helped me by asking questions (spiritual directing?) that prompted me to realize a further unwrapping of my last post--not to worry so much on posing enough questions, etc., but to be myself in God. The emphasis on being in one's heart with God helps me so much--and promoting silence even in the spiritual direction time to re-orient ourselves to the Holy One.

This is a good time. Tomorrow Rose Mary Dougherty will speak on discernment and reconciliation. On Saturday Tilden Edwards spoke about different traditions, chanting, and haiku. He also talked about my Episcopal Church in Corpus Christi as an example of living out of a contemplative viewpoint, especially with its Contemplative Eucharist every Thursday evening. He said he'd mentioned All Saints Episcopal Church in his new book, which is exciting! (But the publisher hasn't told him yet if it will be published.)

As Katherine E. was asking if I was still in Maryland, I'll tell you that the Shalem time will be over Thursday morning. Then all the travel starts!

And for a pertinent painting and post about spiritual direction, go to Purpletologically Speaking.

Shalem Peer Presentation

A few days ago, I presented about one of my directees to my Shalem peer group, which is made up of four other people in the program and one staff member. I was again surprised at how God guides the whole process, and much was revealed to me about myself.

The peer group process is where the members are spiritual directing the spiritual director who presents. That is exactly what happened to me.

After all the Shalem seminars about freedom and openness, I was questioning whether I act as a spiritual director in the "right" or Shalem way. They helped me to see that with this one person, I am feeling peaceful and in connection during our time together, but later I start questioning myself. Probably I am more connected with God in the time with the directee, rather than later when I am judging myself, especially when I notice myself as labeling my actions as "right" or "wrong"--there's a red flag to pay attention!

This is so true of how I have lived. Maybe it's because I grew up in an alcoholic home, with that "elephant" in the middle of the living room that was never talked about. I grew to doubt my own views and expected to be wrong and told what was "true." This has continued through life with me thinking I'm not as good enough or right enough as someone else, even though I am a smart person. Although I am growing into myself, I still sometimes act this way when I'm unsure.

It is amazing to me to think that possibly I have been listening to God in talking with this person. There is validation in this, but also another invitation to trust myself in God and trust God. I'm in awe and so very grateful.

It's the broken feather that two past spiritual directors have told me is mine--TRUST. It fits with my history.

Marriage Meme

Wyrdbyrd tagged me the day I left for MD, and with this free night tonight I am trying this Marriage Meme. Poor CB won't be consulted at all.

1. Where / how did you meet?
CB and I went to high school together, but never dated. He asked me out on my 18th birthday, when we were both attending the college in our hometown. We dated three times and then stopped. Then that May I left a poem called "People" by Yvetushenko on the windshield of his car after I heard he was having a hard time, and we started dating from then on.

2. How long have you known each other?
We've known each other for 42 years.

3. How long after you met did you start dating?
Which time?? From the first date, it was 2 1/2 years.

4. How long did you date before you were engaged?
1 1/2 years.

5. How long was your engagement?
1 1/2 years.

6. How long have you been married?
36 years.

7. When is your anniversary?
December 21

8. How many people came to your wedding reception?
About 50+.

9. What kind of cake did you serve?
White.

10. Where was your wedding?
In St. Paul's Episcopal Church and the reception was in their parish hall.

11. What did you serve for the meal?
No meal--cookies and punch. My mother and I made Mexican wedding cake cookies for weeks beforehand.

12. How many people were in your bridal party?
4 bridesmaids and 4 groomsmen.

13. Are you still friends with them all?
With the females, yes. Not with all the males.

14. Did your spouse cry during the ceremony?
No.

15. Most special moment of your wedding day?
Having communion with CB.

16. Any funny moments?
After the fact, there is a very funny picture of CB and me kissing on the front steps of the church, and CB's younger brother (16 years old) standing behind us with his mouth wide open.

17. Any big disasters?
They almost forgot to get CB and Father Winn to come into the sanctuary!

18. Where did you go on your honeymoon?
San Francisco

19. How long were you gone?
Three days, because we came back late on Christmas Eve.

20. If you were to do your wedding over, what would you change?
I'd rather have a date not as close to Christmas, because we usually have little time to celebrate "the" day.

21. What side of the bed do you sleep on?
Right side.

22. What size is your bed
King

23. Greatest strength as a couple?
We've stuck together through really hard times.

24. Greatest challenge as a couple?
Communication

25. Who literally pays the bills?
CB handles the finances.

26. What is your song?
Probably "Nights in White Satin" by the Moody Blues.

27. What did you dance your first dance to?
No dancing.

28. Describe your wedding dress.
My mother made the dress--Long, with long sleeves, made of ivory silk brocade, with buttons down the back.

29. What kind of flowers did you have at your wedding?
White roses. There were red poinsettias at the end of each aisle.

30. Are your wedding bands engraved?
No.

Spiritual Maturity

Greetings from Maryland. Tonight is our first free night at Shalem, and so I am luxuriating in the use of one of the eight computers in the computer room. Sadly, I cannot figure out how to copy pictures here, so no cute images. . . . So I wish you hearts!

The time here is enriching and intensive. So far, we've had four lectures a day, plus peer groups with presentations. I present tomorrow to my peer group and have probably been processing it way too much with the lectures today on spiritual awareness and spiritual experience. The Shalem way of spiritual direction is to wait, listen, and ask a few questions. I probably help too much with my directees!

Yesterday Martha Campbell, Director of the Spiritual Guidance Program, gave us a copy of an email from Jerry May about SPIRITUAL MATURITY from January 2005, which I will share with you:

Jerry wrote:

I really hate the notion of "development" and "maturity." I guess I'd want to use something like "way of being" or "quality of being" or "quality of presence."

Maturity:

• involves realizing you ARE God, or a manifestation thereof. . . when the duality disappears. Keeping a dualistic notion of God and me sounds pretty immature to me.

• is knowing that I don't know. Trusting that this is OK. Relaxing into this stance so that I don't have to try to figure anything out. Living in the mystery that is God.

• is living in wonder and praise. Seeing/experiencing everything in God, "in whom I live and move and have my being." But not thinking about this, just being in the experience of it.

There is a stage/phase/experience on the path to maturity whcih looks like an increasing awareness of moments when I take back control. At those times rather than beting myself up just smiling, turning to God and with God's help letting go again. . . and again. . . and again, gently.

Well, I'm not there. . . .But I am here wishing you a Happy Valentine's Day!

a silly quiz

Just like Crimson Rambler, I'm this time in the morning:

Emmitsburg, MD

Rumors among the sisters here in the computer room at the Saint Elizabeth Ann Seton Retreat Center is that there will be freezing rain and snow tomorrow. I'm glad I flew to Baltimore today, as there will probably be lots of delays. The Shalem residential term for Winter 2008 starts at 2 pm on Tuesday, so it is nice to be here already.

It is only 22 degrees F. So it was about 55 degrees hotter in Corpus Christi yesterday!

Somehow hurt my knee, so I'm limping around, feeling much more sympathy for CB whose knees always hurt him.

Shalem Residential Time in Maryland

National Shrine of St. Elizabeth Ann Seton

Located in Emmitsburg, MD is the National Shrine of St. Elizabeth Ann Seton. She founded the Sisters of Charity of St. Joseph in 1809, and is the first native American to be canonized by the Catholic Church.

This is where the second residential term of the Shalem Program for Spiritual Guidance will be held Feb. 12-21.

I am flying to Dallas very early on Monday morning, hopefully catching my connecting flight to Baltimore. Then I am meeting other Shalem people who are going to share a shuttle to Emmitsburg to the Elizabeth Ann Seton Retreat Center, where we will be staying. It is wonderful being there, because the buildings are all interconnected so that we can visit the Basilica even when it is closed from the outside--at night or early in the morning.
I am going a day early, because it is impossible to travel from Corpus Christi, TX to Emmitsburg and reach the first meeting by 2 pm on Tuesday. I found that out last year! (Plus, after CB's problems traveling to Seattle last week, I have doubts about arriving anywhere on time!)

Just as I am flying to the east coast on Monday morning, so CB is traveling from the west coast to TX in the afternoon. We hope he'll get home safely that night with 18 year old MJ home alone--with two dogs and a cat.

There is a computer room in the retreat center, but I don't know how many opportunities I will have to get there. I will try periodically in the next few weeks to check in with you and visit as many friends in the blogsphere as possible.

Friendship

"Stay together, Friends. Don't scatter and sleep.
Our friendship is made of being awake."

~ Jalaluddin Rumi

Focus on what God has given you

My Episcopal church made available Seeking to Serve: A Lenten Exploration of the Millennium Development Goals. It is published by Episcopal Relief and Development. The meditations are written and illustrated by the Rev. Jay Sidebotham, Rector of Chuch of the Holy Spirit in Lake Forest, Illinois.

Here is the meditation for Saturday, Feb. 9:

O give thanks to the Lord, call on his name. Make known his deeds among the peoples. (Psalm 105:1)

"Lent, a season of self-examination, need not be devoid of joy. Nowhere in the invitation to this holy season is there a call to be more 'miserable than thou.' Take some time today, the beginning of the season, to focus on what God has given you. Let gratitude shape your attitude as you embark on this journey for the coming weeks. Make a list of the things for which you are grateful. As you consider the ways you have been on the receiving end of God's grace, you may discover a new openness to giving to those in need."

Too much BUTTER!

I've always liked butter. When I was a little girl, my mother told stories about me reaching into the refrigerator and taking a bite out of a cube of butter. MJ says I like too much butter on my potato and toast.

Well, today I over did it, even for me!

My children have always loved Butterscotch Brownies, a recipe from the old 1957 edition of Betty Crocker's Cook Book for Boys and Girls. Since it's such a small recipe, I usually quadruple it. I decided it would be a nice surprise to make a batch and mail Butterscotch Brownies to my children for Valentine's Day. After my early morning walk today, I made them, as I'm trying to get "everything" done before I leave early on Monday morning for MD.

A little while ago, I cut the brownies. MJ said they're darker than usual. Then she said that they're more buttery than usual. When I touched one and felt the grease, I suddenly remembered what I had done this morning--I'd put FOUR sticks of butter in the recipe, instead of two--as I was hurriedly thinking of 4X the ingredients.

MJ and I laughed and laughed. How silly. (And what a waste.)

Another Book Meme

This one comes from the Psalmist via Red Heeler Ranch. This is one that--depending on circumstances--could be either edifying, bewildering, or just plain silly.

Pick up the nearest book of 123 pages or more. (No cheating!)

Well, the closest pile of books, with the one on top is one I bought for going to the Shalem Residential term: Entering Teresa of Avila's Interior Castle by Gillian T. W. Ahlgren.

Find Page 123.

Find the first 5 sentences.
(The author quotes Teresa of Avila and describes her as lamenting the human tendency to ignore the divine within. You will see below how the author writes LONG sentences.)

Post the next 3 sentences.
"Without denying that Teresa play a significant (and intentional) role in the Catholic Counter-Reformation and that a Catholic interpretive system guided her understanding of human life, the fact that she identified the interior depths of the human person as the primary sphere of human-divine intimate creativity suggests that her insights contribute to a deeper sense of what it is to be human, not merely what it means to be Christian or Catholic. Thus, although Teresa clearly felt that Christian theology offered the best framework for her to understand and express the human-divine relationship, it is not clear that her theological system, as explicitly Christian as it is, is unable to enter a larger interreligious dialogue about the nature of the self, especially the self and the self-beyond-self as points of entry into human-divine relationality or ultimate reality.

"This leads to the corollary to Teresa's major premise, that understanding the self is a theological project requiring some forms of theological language."


Tag 5 people.
I tag Garlic/Salt, Fran, Jiff, Garten, and The Crimson Rambler.

Micah Challenge Prayers for MDG's

This is from the Micah Challenge, a global Christian campaign to achieve the MDGs. Part of their mission is a weekly prayer emailing like the one you see below. You can receive it in your email box every week if you send a blank email to regine.nagel@micahchallenge.org with the words 'subscribe prayer' in the subject line.

Micah Challenge International

Micah Challenge USA

"If it was not for the women, you wouldn’t have a church."

This bold statement is made by Nyambura J Njoroge in the Africa Bible Commentary on the role of women in the church.

‘There can be no denying that women and men are created equal in the image of God. Thus we must not focus on the gender roles that society, church and African cultures have assigned to women. The focus should fall on the biblical call for all human beings to discern what is the will of God in their lives.’

Please reflect on Romans 12:1-8 where the apostle Paul urges both brothers and sisters to be available to God as an act of worship.

‘Women have a critical and prophetic role to play in ‘stirring the waters’ and ‘speaking the truth’ by asserting their God-given humanity and gifts – not for their own sake but for the sake of the integrity of the gospel.’

Prayer

Let us pray:

* Nyambura J Njoroge says: ‘Women still face a daunting task in advocating and modelling gender justice in the church and in society.’ - Please pray for sensitivity and wisdom as women and men around the world boldly work towards achieving this task.

* Reflecting on the statistic below: we praise God for a closing of the gender gap in health and education. We pray that political and economic leaders will increase their efforts to decrease the gender gap in women’s economic participation and political empowerment.

* Micah Challenge coordinator in Bolivia, Roxana Villarroel, asks for prayer for the large number of poor families affected by climate change in the country. She writes:

We are expecting another year with bad news due to the Niña Phenomenon (a climatic phenomenon which causes the waters of the pacific ocean to become unusually cold and as a result produces storms; in recent decades this has been the cause of major climatic disasters) and thousands of families will be affected. A recently released government report has registered 13,883 families whose houses were damaged and at least 18 people have died.

This news must call us to reflect and to mobilize as, as so often, the affected people are those with little opportunity to protect themselves. As people of God we must learn to practice justice. Let us be sure that the church is there to act with love and compassion.

Please pray for our campaign plans this year and the challenges that we face. May God in his mercy help us to be faithful in the ministry.

* Micah Challenge Haiti is organizing a seminar on Integral Mission for all theological seminaries and bible schools in the country.

o Please pray that the participants will be enthusiastic to learn and be motivated to apply what they have learnt in the curricula of their colleges.

o Dr Elaine Storkey as she teaches the main sessions. Please pray for clarity and wisdom so that her teaching can be easily applied in the Haitian context.

Meditate on the Statistics

As you spend time in prayer and reflection, you may like to take a moment to silently understand with your heart the focus statistic we include each week (see below). Our hope is that you will find this series of statistics a useful resource in preparing presentations.

Goal 3: Promote gender equality and empower women

Indicator 10: Ratio of literate women to men, 15-24 years old
Indicator 11: Share of women in wage employment in the non-agricultural sector
Indicator 12: Proportion of seats held by women in national parliament

The global overview of the Gender gap ‘shows that the 128 countries covered, representing over 90% of the world’s population, are close to eliminating the gap between women and men’s health and education outcomes: almost 92% of the educational outcomes gap and 96% of the health outcomes gap has been closed. However the gap between women and men on economic participation and political empowerment remains wide: only 58% of the economic outcomes gap and only 14% of the political outcomes gap has been closed.’

Source: The Global Gender Gap Report 2007, World Economic Forum 2007

The Global Gender Gap Report 2007 is based on a new methodology and includes detailed profiles that provide insight into the economic, legal and social aspects of the gender gap in each country. The Report measures the size of the gender gap in four critical areas of inequality between men and women:

1) Economic participation and opportunity – outcomes on salaries, participation levels and access to high-skilled employment
2) Educational attainment – outcomes on access to basic and higher level education
3) Political empowerment – outcomes on representation in decision-making structures
4) Health and survival – outcomes on life expectancy and sex ratio

Yours in Christ,
Regine and MC team

Please view all the Friday Prayer statistics we’ve used to date at Index of Millennium Development Goal Statistics.xls

Please see Index of Reflections on Integral Mission.xls

WELCOME HOME, WYLD!

Welcome home, Wyld!

When I first started blogging in May 2007, I noticed these succinct and snazzy comments on RevGalBlogPals sites by someone named Wyldth!ng. What always intrigued me was the icon he used--the man in a bowler hat, which he does not use anymore.

Since my dad was a career Marine, I liked reading Wyld's reflections on the Marines and his time in Iraq. His honest sharing and questioning captured my attention.

I am very glad he is safely home. Thank you for serving, Wyld. And welcome back!

Shoo-Fly Cake Recipe

If you like molasses, you'll like this easy coffee cake!

4 cups flour
2 1/3 cups packed light brown sugar (1 lb.)
1 cup (2 sticks) butter, cut into pieces, softened
2 cups boiling water
1 cup molasses
2 tsp. baking soda

1. Preheat the oven to 350 degrees F. Grease a 13 x 9 inch baking pan.

2. In a bowl with an electric mixer on low speed, combine the flour, brown sugar, and butter. Work into fine crumbs.
Remove and reserve 1 1/2 cups of the crumbs for the topping.

3. In a small bowl, combine the boiling water, molasses, and baking soda; add to the mixing bowl and beat on medium speed until the batter is smooth and thin. Poor the batter into the prepared baking pan. Sprinkle the reserved crumbs over the top.

4. Bake the cake until a toothpick inserted in the center emerges clean, about 40 minutes.

5. Cool the cake to room temperature in the pan on a wire rack. Cut into big squares and serve directly from the pan.

Makes one 13 x 9 inch cake; serves 12-16.

Richard Sax. Classic Home Desserts. (out of print book)

Mystics

"Mystics" (1924) by Xul Solar

"These are miniature structures that claim to signify the universe. As in Borges' stories, limitation and limitlessness vie for our attention. Xul's world is everywhere and nowhere; it is the symbol of the universe on a miniature plane." (by Lois Parkinson Zamora of the University of Houston)

Xul Solar was the adopted name of Oscar Agustín Alejandro Schulz Solari (1887-1963 ), Argentine painter, sculptor, writer and inventor of imaginary languages.
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As I look forward to going to the Shalem Residential time in MD next week, I am wondering which mystic I should do my final study on. Just as I have a strength known as "Input" (or gatherer) and have been stumped with what to choose for my master's scholarly papers, so I am in a similar position in choosing the mystic to study. I like each one I read about! I just have to narrow the search and CHOOSE--but that's hard for me!

Friday Five: What Are You Doing for Lent?

Mother Laura brought this Friday Five to the RevGals this week.

1. Did you celebrate Mardi Gras and/or Ash Wednesday this week? How?
Since husband CB left on Ash Wednesday to fly to Washington to be with his father, who had successful heart valve replacement surgery today, I went to the evening Ash Wednesday service with daughter MJ. There was a feeling of unity with those there, as we pondered this beginning of Lent together and received ashes on our foreheads and then shared in the Eucharist. I felt very blessed to have MJ with me.

2. What was your most memorable Mardi Gras/Ash Wednesday/Lent?
I was reminded by the Ash Wednesday service why I returned to the Episcopal Church three years ago. During those Lent, Holy Week, and Easter services, I found my true home again in the liturgy, awe, and worship at All Saints Episcopal Church. I'd resisted rejoining, because I had not wanted to come for the charismatic priest, and finally during that time, I realized it was the experience of the Holy in the church that brought me there.

3. Did you/your church/your family celebrate Lent as a child? If not, when and how did you discover it?
No. See #2.

4. Are you more in the give-up camp, or the take-on camp, or somewhere in between?
I used to be in the give-up camp until I realized it was mostly a practice to lose weight. . . . So I think I'm somewhere in between.

5. How do you plan to keep Lent this year?
In my heart. I haven't decided what to give up or take on, but feel like I'm in the process. It is hard to express, but I know I am observing Lent in my attitude.

God's Mercy

God’s mercy is greater than our sins. There is an awareness of sin that does not lead to God but rather to self-preoccupation. Our temptation is to be so impressed by our sins and our failings and so overwhelmed by our lack of generosity that we get stuck in paralyzing guilt. It is the guilt that says, ‘I am too sinful to deserve God’s mercy.’ It is the guilt that leads to introspection instead of directing our eyes to God. It is the guilt that has become an idol and therefore a form of pride.

Lent is a time to break down this idol and to direct our attention to our loving Lord. The question is: ‘Are we like Judas, who was so overcome by his sin that he could not believe in God’s mercy . . . or are we like Peter who returned to his Lord with repentance and cried bitterly for his sins?’ The season of Lent, during which winter and spring struggle with each other for dominance, helps us in a special way to cry out for God’s mercy.

-Henri Nouwen, A Cry For Mercy

This meant so much to me over at De Die In Diem that I had to post it.

Safe?

Air Travel

I am sure this is how husband CB feels, though he is stuck in the Houston terminal and not inside an airplane. He left our home at 4 am this morning for a 5:30 flight to Houston, which was delayed for three hours. He'd had a 2 hr. 45 min. layover originally scheduled for Houston, but he still missed his connecting flight to Seattle! So now poor CB is stuck in the Houston airport for the next five hours until he can get on the 2:30 flight to Seattle, which gets him there during RUSH HOUR at 5:30--IF all goes well. He's hoping (as we all are) that he'll get up to Bellingham before his dad goes to bed tonight, because the heart valve replacement surgery is tomorrow morning.

In today's newspaper there was an article that stated that in 2007 more than 26% of U.S. flights were delayed or cancelled.

This makes me worry about next Monday, when I leave at 6 am for Baltimore for the Shalem Residential education and CB is scheduled to get back at 10 pm. And here is 18 year old MJ at home (after school and soccer practice). . . . The fear is logical, because the last flight to Corpus Christi by the two major carriers is often scrubbed, and I can imagine CB stuck in Houston, me in Maryland, and MJ in Corpus Christi. . . .

5 Minutes of Laughter!!

Take the time and LAUGH!!

Mandalas

Thanks to Ellie at Meditation Matters, who always posts the most beautiful images, I've found a site that displays many artists' mandalas. I haven't had time to explore it yet, but there are numerous categories, subjects, colors to find art, plus education about manadalas! It's The Mandala Project. Here's one:

The artist is Sylvia Rubio from Mexico, who wrote that this was her first mandala! She submitted it to the site in 2002.

And here's one from Canada, by Shelaugh Dignam:

Spiritual Progress by Evelyn Underhill

"Do not entertain the notion that you ought to advance in your prayer. If you do, you will only find you have put on the brake instead of the acceleration. All real progress in spiritual things comes gently, imperceptibly, and is the work of God. Our crude efforts spoil it. Know yourself for the childish, limited and dependent soul you are. Remember that the only growth which matters happens without our knowledge and that trying to stretch ourselves is both dangerous and silly. Think of the Infinite Goodness, never of your own state."

Source: The Fruits of the Spirit

Go here to receive similar meditations in your inbox each day.

I constantly need this reminder! Look to the Source not at me.

Flying To and Fro

Husband CB flies to Seattle on Wednesday and back on Monday; I fly to Baltimore on Monday.

CB's father is having open heart surgery in Bellingham, WA on Thursday morning, so CB is going up there to be with him. His dad will be in the hospital for at least five days and then CB flies home to TX on Monday(if all goes well), while I go to the opposite coast.

Prayers would be appreciated.

Let me tell you about my marvelous god

by Susan Stewart

Let me tell you about my marvelous god, how he hides in the hexagons

of the bees, how the drought that wrings its leather hands

above the world is of his making, as well as the rain in the quiet minutes

that leave only thoughts of rain.

An atom is working and working, an atom is working in deepest

night, then bursting like the farthest star; it is far

smaller than a pinprick, far smaller than a zero and it has no

will, no will toward us.

This is why the heart has paced and paced,

will pace and pace across the field where yarrow

was and now is dust. A leaf catches

in a bone. The burrow’s shut by a tumbled clod

and the roots, upturned, are hot to the touch.

How my god is a feathered and whirling thing; you will singe your arm

when you pluck him from the air,

when you pluck him from that sky

where grieving swirls, and you will burn again

throwing him back.

Susan Stewart, “Let me tell you about my marvelous god” from Columbarium (Chicago: The University of Chicago Press, 2003). Copyright © 2003 by the University of Chicago.

Transfiguration

	Transfiguration by Pat Turlington

Separation is the Link

by David Arthur Neri is the picture I could not manage to post here. Scroll down under the artist's picture on the right to find this painting. David Neri wrote this about his paintings:

"As an artist my work is based on my emotional and intuitive response to the subject matter--much of which is taken from memory and imagination. When I paint, I view the painting in terms of color and form. Structurally, the scene, though loosely tied to reality, becomes idealized rather than representational. The painting thus becomes a metaphor using strong color combinations which are intended to evoke an emotional response in the viewer. My goal is to create paintings which speak to the viewer on a deeply personal level of those timeless places within each of us."

Lately, my mantra has been "The Separation is the LINK."
Remember that the hiddenness, the obstacle, the alone-ness is God.
I'm trying to remember this.

The Name Game

Many are doing this silly meme, but I last looked at Zorra's.

1. YOUR ROCK STAR NAME (first pet, current car): Inky Avalon

2. YOUR GANGSTA NAME (fave ice cream flavor, favorite type of shoe): Vanilla Keen

3. YOUR NATIVE AMERICAN NAME (favorite color, favorite animal): Green Cocker

4. YOUR SOAP OPERA NAME (middle name, city where you were born): Anne Bremerton

5. YOUR STAR WARS NAME (the first three letters of your last name, first two of your first name): Hilja

6. SUPERHERO NAME (2nd favorite color, favorite drink): Blue Tab

7. NASCAR NAME (the first names of your grandfathers): John George

8. STRIPPER NAME ( the name of your favorite perfume/cologne/scent, favorite candy): Rose Chocolate

9. TV WEATHER ANCHOR NAME (your fifth grade teacher’s last name, a major city that starts with the same letter): Nowell Newark

10. SPY NAME (your favorite season/holiday, flower): Fall Daffodil

11. CARTOON NAME (favorite fruit, article of clothing you’re wearing right now): Apple Jeans

12. HIPPIE NAME (What you ate for breakfast, your favorite tree): Crackers Oak

If you thought this was fun, feel free to play!

Fundamentalism in Islam

Yesterday I listened to Ronald Rolheiser give an excellent talk on Augustine. He repeated a quote from Kenneth Cragg twice to end the lecture. Of course, I wanted to find out whom this person was! However, I thought it was "Kenneth CRAIG" and so asked both MadPriest and Crimson Rambler about him when I could find nothing about this mistakenly named priest. I am grateful to MadPriest who wrote: "Perhaps you mean Bishop Kenneth Cragg who is a world renown Anglican scholar and expert on Islam. He's retired now. In fact, he must be in his mid 90s." This info led me to many more sources on google, especially an article from The Christian Century in 1999.

"Cross Meets Crescent: An Interview with Kenneth Craig" explores Christian and Islam ecumenism. I am posting the section of the article that addresses "fundamentalism" in the Islam faith.

What place does fundamentalism have within the full range of Islamic faith and practice?

This is difficult to discuss, because there is no equivalent for the word "fundamentalism" in Arabic. In one sense, Islam is inherently fundamentalist in that it understands the Qur'an to be a literal dictation to Muhammad of a book in heaven. His mental processes or personal preferences are not at all involved in the text of the Qur'an. It is simply the result of a mysterious process of inspiration or revelation that comes down upon him. The orthodox view (with which I don't agree) is that Muhammad was illiterate. That makes the text of the Qur'an all the more God's word, because it couldn't have come from Muhammad. The 13th-century mystic Jalal ed-Din Rumi gives a vivid image of Muhammad's role in transmitting the Qur'an: Muhammad is like a stone lion in a garden. Out of the lion's mouth comes a spout of water. Everyone knows that a cunning plumber has contrived a pipe to use as a conduit to conduct the water through the lion.

In Islam, the more something is of God, the less the human is needed. In contrast, the biblical view is that the more the divine is giving, the more the human is recruited. The biblical prophets are vivid personalities, not ciphers. Each has his own unique style and imagery.

But the Qur'an has been considered a literal scripture from the beginning. This is what accounts for the importance of calligraphy and recitation in Islam. One mustn't make a mistake in recitation, since one is repeating the very words of God. For most Christians, the New Testament is not that kind of writing. We see it as a book about what is antecedent to itself -- the person and work of Christ, the Word made flesh, teaching and suffering among us.

Though the Qur'an does need interpretation, Muslims don't approach it with the kind of almost overconfidence that sometimes marks Christian exegesis of the Bible. A Muslim once said to me, "You play fast and loose with your scripture." That is how Muslims react to our sense that we need to discern what the text could mean -- especially, for example, when we deal with the Gospel of John. We question whether we can accept the text as giving us the actual words of Jesus, as we think the parables do. Why do Jesus' words sound so different in the Fourth Gospel? What is John doing here? Those are legitimate questions for us, questions that are a part of the integrity of our faith. One Muslim has referred to "the liquidity of the Christian scriptures as you treat them." He says it's like the liquidity of capital -- we make it do what we want it to do.

Another factor is that Muslims understand Islam as the final religion, and Jesus as the next-to-last in a long succession of prophets. The Qur'an is the book that perfects and, if need be, corrects all previous revelation, going right back to Abraham. That gives Muslims an enormous sense of finality, which tends to preclude a will to be really critical or even investigative about what they believe.

The article gives this info about Kenneth Cragg:

Kenneth Cragg has been a major figure in Christian-Muslim conversations. He has spent some 45 years in the Middle East as professor of philosophy, as a chaplain, and as assistant bishop in the Anglican Archdiocese of Jerusalem. He has also taught at the University of Sussex in England. His published works include hundreds of scholarly articles and more than 30 books, most recently The Arab Christian and Palestine: The Prize and Price of Zion. Now in his 80s, Bishop Cragg still lectures at Oxford University and in Europe and the U.S. This interview appeared in The CHRISTIAN CENTURY, February 17, l999; copyright by the Christian Century Foundation and used by permission. This text was prepared for Religion Online by John C. Purdy.

Go here to read the rest of the article.

(What's funny is that Crimson Rambler also sent me a link to the same article I'd found! It's nice to have a resourceful blogging community!)

Also, here's a link to an article about Kenneth Cragg and his writings.

Good article to read

Work That Is Real

by Kayla McClurg

The pitcher cries for water to carry
and a person for work that is real.
--- Marge Piercy

When my doctor told me, in that sudden crazy phone call at Thanksgiving, that I had an urgent heart problem and needed to get to the emergency room immediately, I went, but not before walking up and then back down a flight of 15 stairs to get a book. I realize now I actually risked death to keep from sitting in the ER for hours, maybe my last hours on this good earth, with nothing to do! In my bedroom, my 'third eye' knew this might be my last time there, and it noticed two things in particular: how topsy-turvy my closet was and how many things I own that haven't fulfilled their intended purpose....

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Which Wife of Henry VIII are you?

Which of Henry VIII's wives are you?
this quiz was made by Lori Fury

Saw this over at Crimson Rambler's and had to try it.

Only in Texas. . . .

I'll be driving to San Antonio tomorrow, and somewhere around there is this spot, though I've never seen it. I am going with my friend MB to hear Ronald Rolheiser speak on Augustine for the Christian Mysticism course.

Tonight is another soccer game, and it'll be cold--yes, especially for us way down here in south Texas! We'll be sitting on metal bleachers with the wind blowing, and it'll be in the low 50s F. That's a shock for us, especially since there was a record high temperature of 86 degrees F. just a few days ago.
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MJ's team lost 3-1, but MJ assisted for her team's one goal.

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Too tired to think or blog

The Bright Field

I have seen the sun break through

to illuminate a small field

for a while, and gone my way

and forgotten it. But that was the pearl

of great price, the one field that had

the treasure in it. I realize now

that I must give all that I have

to possess it. Life is not hurrying

on to a receding future, nor hankering after

an imagined past. It is the turning

aside like Moses to the miracle

of the lit bush, to a brightness

that seemed as transitory as your youth

once, but is the eternity that awaits you.

By R. S. Thomas

Your Language Arts Grade: 100%

Way to go! You know not to trust the MS Grammar Check and you know "no" from "know." Now, go forth and spread the good word (or at least, the proper use of apostrophes).

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High School Soccer

Soccer season started tonight here. We were lucky that today there was a record high temperature of 86 degrees F. today, so it was comfortable out in the wind on the metal bleachers. It's supposed to be much colder for Friday night's game. You never know what it'll be like in south Texas.

It was an exciting game, because MJ's high school varsity team won 3-1 over a San Antonio team. And MJ scored two goals and assisted with the third one! This is surprising to us, because she always played a defensive position until this year, which really means that 13 out of 14 years of soccer playing has had her playing on defense.

Purity of Heart

Saint Francis and Brother Leo

By Brennan Manning

One day Saint Francis and Brother Leo were walking down the road. Noticing that Leo was depressed, Francis turned and asked: “Leo, do you know what it means to be pure of heart?”

“Of course. It means to have no sins, faults or weaknesses to reproach myself for.”

“Ah,” said Francis, “now I understand why you’re sad. We will always have something to reproach ourselves for.”

“Right,” said Leo. “That’s why I despair of ever arriving at purity of heart.”

“Leo, listen carefully to me. Don’t be so preoccupied with the purity of your heart. Turn and look at Jesus. Admire him. Rejoice that he is what he is—your Brother, your Friend, your Lord and Savior. That, little brother, is what it means to be pure of heart. And once you’ve turned to Jesus, don‘t turn back and look at yourself. Don’t wonder where you stand with him. . . .

After a long pause, Leo said, “Still, Francis, the Lord demands our effort and fidelity.”

“No doubt about that,” replied Francis. “But holiness is not a personal achievement. It’s an emptiness you discover in yourself. Instead of resenting it, you accept it and it becomes the free space where the Lord can create anew. To cry out, ‘You alone are the Holy One, you alone are the Lord,’ that is what it means to be pure of heart. And it doesn’t come by your Herculean efforts and threadbare resolutions.”

“Then how?” asked Leo.

“Simply hoard nothing of yourself; sweep the house clean. Sweep out even the attic, even the nagging painful consciousness of your past. Accept being shipwrecked. Renounce everything that is heavy, even the weight of your sins. See only the compassion, the infinite patience, and the tender love of Christ. Jesus is Lord. That suffices. Your guilt and reproach disappear into nothingness of non-attention. You are no longer aware of yourself, like the sparrow aloft and free in the azure sky. Even the desire for holiness is transformed into a pure and simple desire for Jesus.” (196-198)

Brennan Manning. “Shipwrecked at the Stable.” Watch For The Light: Readings For Advent And Christmas

Franciscan Blessing

May God bless you with discomfort
At easy answers, half-truths, and superficial relationships
So that you may live deep within your heart

May God bless you with anger
At injustice, oppression and exploitation of people,
So that you may work for justice, freedom and peace

May God bless you with tears
To shed for those who suffer pain, rejection, hunger and war,
So that you may reach out your hand to comfort them and
Turn their pain into joy

And may God bless you with enough foolishness
To believe that you can make a difference in the world
So that you can do what others claim cannot be done
To bring justice and kindness to all our children and the poor.

Amen amen amen.

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What are your values?

I went to a meeting at the Methodist Church where I'm still a member, but no longer attend, today. (Although that's where the weekly lectio group meets.) All the Methodist churches in this district are involved in Don Nations' Transformational Church program. Today's meeting was for the church population to clarify values in small groups. First, each person wrote down ten values of his/her own; then the group was supposed to choose ten from these to represent the group. After that, the list was to go down to five, which then were categorized. In a few weeks, more small groups will choose from 35 values that come from all these first groups.

The group I was in did not discuss too much, but tallied votes for each value. I felt frustrated at the ambiguity and broad categories we decided upon. Our group decided upon:
1. love
2. worship/praise/prayer
3. spiritual growth
4. inclusiveness
5. outreach

When I looked at another table, I was surprised to see that one VALUE was "worldwide evangelism." I'm glad I wasn't at that table.

Tonight I am thinking of my values. Looking on the internet, I found this chart from the Center for Public Service at Tulane University, which I really like:



I especially like the circle for community, which holds inclusivity, diversity, and respect within it.

I wish I'd looked at this before I went to the meeting this morning.

It's in Every One of Us!

My friend JT from Fort Worth sent this to me. It is beautiful.

However, after repeated downloads, it won't completely play here. You'll get half of the video by watching here, but if you click on the utube deal, you can go there and see it all. With my limited computer knowledge, I don't know why it won't completely play here. . . .

Surrender=Leaping

I first chose this cartoon, because that's my view of my leap into belief in God. In my faith journey about my mother's death, I wrote that walking and praying/talking to myself brought me to believe in God. At that same time, as I struggled with faith, I would ask myself such questions as this: "Are you believing so that you will go to Heaven? Are you believing to make yourself feel better? And feel better about your mother's death?" I finally had to imagine myself on a cliff like Indiana Jones did in "Indiana Jones and the Last Crusade"--where he had to cross an abyss and each step he took landed him on an invisible step. I still have to give up thoughts of Eternal Reward, though I believe in afterlife, or I doubt myself and my faith.

Connected with my feelings of leaping is my realization that I get stuck when I do not risk (or leap). In our lectio group on Wednesday, we meditated upon Matthew 4:18-20:

4:18 As Jesus walked by the Sea of Galilee, he saw two brothers, Simon, who is called Peter, and Andrew his brother, casting a net into the sea for they were fishermen.

4:19 And he said to them, "Follow me, and I will make you fish for people."

4:20 Immediately they left their nets and followed him.

The image I had was me watching Jesus speak to Simon Peter and Andrew, and I asked myself, "Why didn't he ask me?" My answer was that Jesus had already asked me, but I had not responded (moved). Another member of our lectio group was drawn to word "net" and imagined all the different uses of a net, like being under an acrobat or trapeze artist for safety. Maybe that helped me to imagine a net under the diving board up there!

For a long time, I have been feeling stuck in many areas of my life: prayer, weight, papers, closets! The list could go on and on. . . .

With the realization that I'm stuck, Sunday's quotation from Simone Weil returned to me many times with the thought that "every separation is a link" to God. My link is my resistance, which I am now offering to God.

AND I am amazed that there is a difference! Yesterday I finally finished my fourth paper for the Shalem Spiritual Guidance Program, which was due two months ago!

The leap was easier than I expected. Offering my resistance (separation/procrastination) to God in faithful prayer is the way to help me risk the leap into the unknowing. There's always more control to give up.

The Gospel of Jesus

I've just started reading a new book The Gospel of Jesus: In Search of the Original Good News by James M. Robinson, the general editor of The Nag Hammmadi Library in English. I am very struck by one of his paragraphs in the Introduction:

"Jesus came to grips with the basic intentions of people. He addressed them personally, as to what kind of people they were. He called on them--he did not just teach them ideas. When we take his sayings and distill from them our doctrines, what we have really done is manipulate his sayings for our own purposes, first of all, for the purpose of avoiding his personal address to us. Without realizing it, we reclassify his sayings as objective teachings to which we can give intellectual assent, rather than letting them strike home as the personal challenge he intended them to be. The issue is not what we think about them, but rather what we do about them" (xiv).

This looks like a provocative book!

MLK's Unfinished Revolution

Tuesday, January 22, 2008 (from God's Politics: a blog by Jim Wallis and friends)

MLK's Unfinished Revolution (by Mary Nelson)

Martin Luther King's sermon at Riverside Church linked the devastating Vietnam war to the struggle over poverty. I began working that year in an under-resourced community and wore a "Bread not Bombs" sweatshirt to anti-war demonstrations. Sadly, not much has changed. The amount spent on the Iraq war (CBO estimate $9 billion a month, up to $1 trillion total), if directed elsewhere, would virtually ensure universal education, universal health care, and affordable housing.

King called for a revolution of values from racism, materialism, and militarism. Little has changed in 40 years for people in my low-income community. Racism still dominates. It is less overt now, but has expanded from divisions of black—white to Latino, Asian, Arab Muslim, and immigrants. Katrina pictures reminded us of how little progress we've made on economic disparity. Economic progress is measured by consumer spending. Environmental issues threaten our future. King ended his speech saying, " Now let us rededicate ourselves to the long and bitter—but beautiful—struggle for a new world."

My Sojourners Sweatshirt says, "HOPE is believing in spite of the evidence and watching the evidence change." Despite the evidence, I am strangely hopeful. I see young people wanting a better world, working for candidates, working in community and on environmental issues. I know generous people who share resources and skills to forge new opportunities for jobs. Economist Jeffrey Sachs (The End of Poverty) and Nobel Peace Prize winner Muhammad Yunus (Creating a World without Poverty) outline specific ways to change the disparities. Now let us dedicate ourselves to the long yet beautiful struggle for a new world.

Mary Nelson is president emeritus of Bethel New Life, a faith-based community development corporation on the west side of Chicago. She is also a board member of Sojourners.

Author of "This Ancient Love"

My dear friend Nancy, whom I first met in Yokosuka, Japan in 1962, referred me to a Unitarian Universalist site that has a long article about the author of "This Ancient Love"--Carolyn McDade, who is pictured in the center of the picture below.

From the article "Carolyn McDade's Spirit of Life":

"McDade, now 72, has given her life to what she calls the movement. By that she certainly means the feminist movement that dramatically changed what was possible for women since she was a girl. But she also means a chain of linked, politically progressive causes: She has actively opposed wars, South African apartheid, U.S. foreign policy, and nuclear power. She has worked for economic justice, environmental protection, and the rights of women migrant workers, prisoners, refugees, and lesbians."

The title of this article comes from what they term the UU doxology, which McDade wrote:

Spirit of Life, come unto me.
Sing in my heart all the stirrings of compassion.
Blow in the wind, rise in the sea;
Move in the hand, giving life the shape of justice.
Roots hold me close; wings set me free;
Spirit of Life, come to me, come to me.

"McDade grew up Southern Baptist in a series of small rural Louisiana towns. When she was just six, the United States entered World War II. That’s when she became a peace activist, she says. The men were gone, the women were doing everything on the home front, and no one was shielding the children from the raw horror of every newsreel and war movie. “I never forgot Hiroshima and Nagasaki,” she says. “No God I had learned about would ever want or allow such behavior, such suffering, such brutality.”"

Another Carolyn McDade website is here.

Reality

This Ancient Love

"This Ancient Love"

Long before the night was born from darkness,

Long before the dawn rolled unsteady from fire,

Long before She wrapped her silent arm around the hills,

There was a love, an ancient love was born.

Long before the grass spotted green the bare hillside,

Long before a wing unfolded to wind,

Long before She wrapped her long blue arm around the sea,

There was a love, this ancient love was born.

Long before a chain was forged from the hillside,

Long before a voice uttered freedom's cry,

Long before she wrapped her bleeding arms around the child,

There was a love, and ancient love was born.

Long before the name of a god was spoken,

Long before a cross was nailed from a tree,

Long before She waved her arm of colors 'cross the skies,

There was a love, this ancient love was born.

Fateful our night, slumbers our morning,

Stubborn the grass growing green wounded hills,

As we wrap our healing arms to hold what Her arms held,

This ancient love, this aching love, rolls on.

--Carolyn McDade

I love this song so much that I want it sung at my funeral, whenever that may be.

Global Poverty Bible Study

A week late, I am realizing that the General Board of Church and Society of the United Methodist Church is publishing a five-week Bible study on Global Poverty in its weekly newsletter "Faith in Action." It has been created by Alexis Coleman, Pastor, Harper's Ferry, W. VA.

For the General Poverty Bible Study, the first two weeks have been published online. “A New Year in God’s World” includes five weekly Bible studies with short Scripture reading, questions for group reflection and action, facts on the state of the global poor and congregational prayers.

1st week

2nd week

To subscribe to the newsletter, go here. This way you can see the next three weeks of this Bible Study. You can also receive Jim Winkler's weekly column, which this week is entitled "My Faith in God. . ." One paragraph from this article is:

"My faith in God helps me understand that God has always relied on people to be the agents of change, peace, reconciliation and forgiveness. That is why we are here. God is most disappointed when we become defensive, violent and vengeful."

Cookie Cutter Christian?

Tonight daughter MJ and I had a long discussion about Christianity. She told me that she did NOT want to be a "cookie cutter Christian." I am so happy to hear that. We had a good talk about faith and how we will never know who God is, because God is so much bigger than our minds can imagine. We talked about the Bible, the Jesus Seminar, and prayer, among other things.

I'm glad MJ and I can do this. I wish I'd been comfortable enough in my faith to talk to my other children, especially about doubts, wonderings, and questions. One son says I try to "ruin" his faith when I talk about such things now, but MJ says he just doesn't want to think!

This reminds me of something Father Kelly Nemeck said long ago at Lebh Shomea--that each of us has to form our own Christology (Theology). This has become more meaningful to me as time has gone by, as I realize my concept of God continues to change or grow. It seems like the more I travel on this road, the less I know of God and the more I believe.

St. John of the Cross said:

"Preserve a loving attentiveness to God
with no desire to feel or understand
any particular thing concerning God."

Christian Unity or Disunity?

Dave Walker put his cartoon with a good post about "Christian Unity."

That image shows the situation for the Christian Church, not just the Episcopalian Church. It also illustrates human to human perceptions of each other--what we look at instead of realizing our overwhelming connection.

Many fine posts have recently been written about this, so here are only a few I've found this morning. You know others, like MadPriest and Wounded Bird and Episcopalooza. (I have to stop now, or I'd go on way too long. . . .)

Katherine's post about Episcopalians in Fort Worth: You can't have it both ways

Katie at Desert's Child continues to write pertinent posts about the Episcopal Church, and Katherine cites her in the above post.

And don't forget Dave Walker's post about "Christian Unity."