
I believe that we make our own Heaven or Hell for ourselves here on earth. To have faith long ago, I had to give up the idea of the reward of Heaven or punishment of Hell, because I kept second-guessing myself, asking: "Do I believe only for the promised end?"
I was helped greatly by
Father Kelly Nemeck, founder of
Lebh Shomea, House of Prayer, retreat center in Sarita, TX, who spoke once about Hell in 2000. He said he did not believe in Hell, but even if it does exist in physical space, it is
empty! Father Kelly is a contemplative, a spiritual director, an author of many books, and someone I admire greatly.
In classes at Oblate School of Theology, I learned that some scholars believe that Jesus referred to Gehenna for the place we interpret as "Hell."
Gehenna was the garbage dump for ancient Jerusalem; the refuse was constantly burning. Poor people lived around the areas, trying to find means to live.
I have friends who fear the prospect of Hell. And so I was struck by Ken Wilber's words in his book about his wife's cancer and eventual death,
Grace and Grit: Spirituality and Healing in the Life and Death of Treya Killam Wilber:
(this is a conversation between Treya and Ken)
Treya: "And you're saying that not just the eastern mystics but also the Western mystics actually define sin and Hell as being due to the separate self?"
Ken: "The separate self and its loveless grasping, desiring, avoiding--yes, definitely. It's true that the equation of Hell or
samsara with the separate self is strongly emphasized in the East, particularly in Hinduism and Buddhism. But you find an essentially similar theme in the writings of the Catholic, Gnostic, Quaker, Kabbalistic, and Islamic mystics. My favorite is from the remarkable William Law, an 18th-century Christian mystic from England; I'll read it to you:
'See here the whole truth in short. All sin, death, damnation, and hell is nothing else but this kingdom of self, or the various operations of self-love, self-esteem, and self-seeking which separate the soul from God and end in eternal death and hell.' ~~William Law
"Or remember the great Islamic mystic Jalaluddin Rumi's famous saying:
'
If you have not seen the devil, look at your own self.'~~Rumi
"Or the Sufi Abi 'l-Khayr:
'There is no Hell but selfhood, no Paradise but selflessness.'~~Abi 'l-Khayr
"This is also behind the Christians mystics' assertion that, as the
Theologia Germanica put it,
nothing burns in Hell but self-will." (85-86)