Saturday, May 31, 2008

1 Year Blogging!

Not only can I not believe that it's been ONE YEAR since I started blogging, but I find it hard to believe that I am remembering to announce this in the midst of all the preparations for my kids coming home--though they won't be here for a few more hours.

I never knew I would encounter such friendship, support, and even challenge in the blogging world. Thank you to all of you!

Friday, May 30, 2008

Cars and Planes!

My children are traveling by cars and planes to get home to see MJ graduate on Sunday. AE and KA flew from Seattle to Austin this evening and have safely arrived in (HOT) Texas. Big brother DC will drive them with his wife tomorrow to Corpus Christi. And coming from the northeast will be brother BJ driving from Houston. They will probably all arrive around noon-- or so I hope.

I am very excited and grateful that they'll be here tomorrow. It reminds me of Dust Bunny's post about her four children being home. Like her, I'll feel like "all my duckies are in a row." I will be one happy mom!

Thursday, May 29, 2008

Graduation weekend coming up!

Today was MJ's last day of high school. She and I went out to lunch, which was very nice! Before that I went to the only supermarket in Corpus Christi, HEB, to shop for all the food festivities for this weekend. Somehow celebrations and food go together, so once everyone is gone I'll go on a healthier diet!

I make a wonderful carrot cake, which seems to be destined to be the dessert for MJ's graduation. She was shocked that her boy friend CS had never had carrot cake, and so I am baking one for his family's graduation party tomorrow night. Then daughter AE said her partner KA had never had my carrot cake so that's the dessert for our family dinner on Saturday night!

Here's a picture of the valedictorian (CS) and salutatorian (MJ):
Ray High School


Valedictorian


Salutatorian
Yay!

AE and KA are flying from Seattle to Austin tomorrow. They'll stay with DC and wife AA, who will then drive them to Corpus Christi on Saturday. BJ will get here from Houston, too! All our children will be home for about 36 hours! They're all leaving on Sunday afternoon after the graduation ceremony--even MJ who will go off to be a camp counselor then, too.

We're barbecuing on Saturday night, and also will be serving two vegetarian salads, followed by carrot cake! That'll be our one evening with every one home until Christmas. Then on Sunday we're having a brunch before MJ leaves for the graduation at noon.

Graduation is at 1 pm on Sunday, June 1st. We get to sit in the second row! (CS's family sits in the first row.)

And here's a picture to show you how much my kids have grown. AE always tried to get out of pictures being taken, so she's not in this one on BJ's 10th birthday. The crazy one is DC, who was 16, and MJ was 5.


This was 13 years ago.
Time flies!


Wednesday, May 28, 2008

Unless . . . .


Unless you find paradise
at your own center,
there is not the smallest chance
that you may enter.

~~Angelus Silesius


Tuesday, May 27, 2008

War Immemorial Day

by Bill Quigley


"Memorial Day is not actually a day to pray for US troops who died in action, but rather a day set aside by Congress to pray for peace. The 1950 Joint Resolution of Congress, which created Memorial Day, says, "Requesting the President to issue a proclamation designating May 30, Memorial Day, as a day for a Nation-wide prayer for peace." (64 Stat.158).

"Peace today is a nearly impossible challenge for the United States. The US is far and away the most militarized country in the world and the most aggressive. Unless the US dramatically reduces its emphasis on global military action, there will be many, many more families grieving on future Memorial Days.

"The US spends over $600 billion annually on our military, more than the rest of the world combined. China, our nearest competitor, spends about one-tenth of what we spend. The US also sells more weapons to other countries than any other nation in the world."


Read the rest of the article here.

Everything

“Though the human body is born complete in one moment, the birth of the human heart is an ongoing process. It is being birthed in every experience of your life. Everything that happens to you has the potential to deepen you. It brings to birth within you new territories of the heart. Patrick Kavanagh captures this sense of the benediction of happening:


'Praise, praise, praise

The way it happened and the way it is.'"

O’Donohue, John. Anam Cara: A Book of Celtic Wisdom. New York: HarperCollins Publishers, 1998. 6.

Monday, May 26, 2008

May 27

May 27 is the 39th anniversary of CB and my first "real" date. This is the date we always observe, even though we dated three times in the fall of our freshman year in college. We found each other uninteresting that first dating period.

What brought us together is a poem I left on the windshield of his car. That same evening he called me up and invited me to sit with him in the "music room" at the college. After that, we dated often and even studied together. And 2 1/2 years later we were married.

At the time, this was my favorite poem. Here it is:

People
No people are uninteresting.
Their fate is like the chronicle of planets.
Nothing in them is not particular,
and planet is dissimilar from planet.
And if a man lived in obscurity
making his friends in that obscurity
obscurity is not uninteresting.
To each his world is private,
and in that world one excellent minute.
And in that world one tragic minute.
These are private.
In any man who dies there dies with him
his first snow and kiss and fight.
It goes with him.
There are left books and bridges
and painted canvas and machinery.
Whose fate is to survive.
But what has gone is also not nothing:
by the rule of the game something has gone.
Not people die but worlds die in them.
     -- Yevgeny Yevtushenko

Doggie surgery

Our old blonde cocker spaniel Baillie had surgery on Thursday for stones in her bladder that were causing her to be incontinent and listless. There were four, about the size of Hershey Kisses, or maybe a penny.
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She is recovering well and, at times, is even peppy again. Baillie is taking her medicine willingly with it hidden in a glob of peanut butter! (and Cisco gets a taste of peanut butter at the same time)

I'm glad she'll be feeling better for the coming graduation weekend when the two grand-puppies will be arriving with her older brothers.

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And this reminds me of Shel Silverstein's poem about the peanut butter sandwich:

Peanut-Butter Sandwich

    by Shel Silverstein (1932-1999)

I’ll sing you a story of a silly young king
Who played with the world at the end of a string,
But he only loved one single thing --
And that was just a peanut-butter sandwich.

His scepter and his royal gowns,
His regal throne and golden crowns
Were brown and sticky from the mounds
And drippings from each peanut-butter sandwich.

His subjects all were silly fools
For he had passed a royal rule
That all that they could learn in school
Was how to make a peanut-butter sandwich.

He would not eat his sovereign steak,
He scorned his soup and kingly cake,
And told his courtly cook to bake
An extra-sticky peanut-butter sandwich.

And then one day he took a bite
And started chewing with delight,
But found his mouth was stuck quite tight
From that last bite of peanut-butter sandwich.

His brother pulled, his sister pried,
The wizard pushed, his mother cried,
“My boy’s committed suicide
From eating his last peanut-butter sandwich!”

The dentist came, and the royal doc.
The royal plumber banged and knocked,
But still those jaws stayed tightly locked.
Oh darn that sticky peanut-butter sandwich!

The carpenter, he tried with pliers,
The telephone man tried with wires,
The firemen, they tried with fire,
But couldn’t melt that peanut-butter sandwich.

With ropes and pulleys, drills and coil,
With steam and lubricating oil --
For twenty years of tears and toil --
They fought that awful peanut-butter sandwich.

Then all his royal subjects came.
They hooked his jaws with grapplin’ chains
And pulled both ways with might and main
Against that stubborn peanut-butter sandwich.

Each man and woman, girl and boy
Put down their ploughs and pots and toys
And pulled until kerack! Oh, joy --
They broke right through that peanut-butter sandwich.

A puff of dust, a screech, a squeak --
The king’s jaw opened with a creak.
And then in voice so faint and weak --
The first words that they heard him speak
Were, “How about a peanut-butter sandwich?”

Sunday, May 25, 2008

Thoughts


"Listen less to your own thoughts
and more to God's thoughts."


-- François Fénelon

Friday, May 23, 2008

No key

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Looking everywhere
The key or keys are not here
A bird cries outside

Thursday, May 22, 2008

Thursday in South Texas

It was 90 degrees F. today and is supposed to be even warmer tomorrow. This means our HOT weather is here until October or so.

I had posted a silly picture of a child pinned on a clothesline from an email someone sent me, but it only showed up for me on my blog, so I've deleted it. I don't know why it would appear for me and no one else, but my daughter pointed out to me that some photographs have security built into their codes. Oh, well.

Things are very busy with MJ graduating in ten days. Assemblies and parties galore. Tomorrow the school superintendent is treating the valedictorians and salutatorians from the five Corpus Christi high schools to lunch at a local restaurant. I think this is a lovely thing to do.

We learned today that husband CB's sister will not be coming to MJ's graduation. For the graduation ceremonies of her two brothers and sisters, her aunt, uncle, cousin AND grandparents all came. DC, AE, and BJ just walked across the stage along with hundreds of other. Now for their one grandchild (and niece) who will be one of the two speakers, these relatives will not travel here. With CB's dad's frail health and the price of airline tickets, they are not coming. Valid reasons, but a little disappointing.

HOWEVER, daughter AE and partner KA are coming all the way from Seattle to Austin, where they'll meet son DC and wife AA and drive to Corpus Christi for about a 36 hour visit next weekend. Son BJ will be coming from Houston. I am a happy mother to have all my children here to celebrate their sister's graduation from high school! (On June 1, 2008)

It's too bad that the heat will be so high next week, as it is now. And June 1 is the official beginning of Hurricane Season, as well as the day of MJ's graduation.

Tuesday, May 20, 2008

My clothesline

This is my clothesline with sheets hanging on it.

One good thing about the heat in south Texas is that it is ideal to hang clothes out on the clothesline to dry. I've always liked to do that, ever since moving here. I used to hang out cloth diapers to dry!

My clothesline is behind our garage in the space between the garage and the fence.


Shine!

Matthew 5:13-16 (the Message)

Let me tell you why you are here. You’re here to be the salt-seasoning that brings out the God-flavors of this earth. If you lose your saltiness, how will people taste godliness? You’ve lost your usefulness and will end up in the garbage.

Here’s another way to put it: You’re here to be light bringing out the God-colors in the world. God is not a secret to be kept. We’re going public with this, as public as a city on a hill. If I make you light-bearers, you don’t think I’m going to hide you under a bucket, do you? I’m putting you on a light stand. Now that I’ve put you there on a hilltop, on a light stand—shine! Keep open house; be generous with your lives. By opening up to others, you’ll prompt people to open up with God, this generous Father in heaven.

Monday, May 19, 2008

STUPID!!

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Today both CB and I received separate notices that our rebate checks will arrive in three weeks or so. I don't get paid for what I do as a volunteer, so why did I get a letter, too?? What a pointless waste of money. AND these mailings with printing and postage amounted to $42 MILLION!

The news of this occurred about two weeks ago, but I wasn't expecting them to be sent to everyone, like both spouses in joint filing! So this is late news, though I am newly horrified!
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Just as an example about how that money could have been spent, though the figures were proposed eight months ago and was published in September 26, 2007 by Keith Alcorn:

"Up to $42 billion will need to be found by 2010 if universal access to HIV treatment, prevention and care is to be achieved in line with the 2005 commitment by G8 governments, UNAIDS said today."

I would have much preferred the money being spent on aid than mailed notices.


Books read meme

From Yogamum:

It’s a list of the 106 most unread books on shelves (how this was determined, I don’t know!). The rules are to bold the ones you’ve read, underline the ones you read for school, italicize the ones you started but didn’t finish. I probably read more for school, but can't remember them. Being a former English major, I sometimes think I need to re-read all these "classics" after having so many life experiences. . . .

Jonathan Strange & Mr Norrell
Anna Karenina
Crime and Punishment
Catch-22
One Hundred Years of Solitude
Wuthering Heights
The Silmarillion
Life of Pi : a novel
The Name of the Rose
Don Quixote
Moby Dick
Ulysses
Madame Bovary
The Odyssey
Pride and Prejudice
Jane Eyre
The [A] Tale of Two Cities
The Brothers Karamazov
Guns, Germs, and Steel
War and Peace
Vanity The Time Traveler’s Wife
The Iliad
Emma
The Blind Assassin
The Kite Runner
Mrs. Dalloway

Great Expectations
American Gods
A Heartbreaking Work of Staggering Genius
Atlas Shrugged
Reading Lolita in Tehran : a memoir in books
Memoirs of a Geisha
Middlesex
Quicksilver
Wicked : the life and times of the wicked witch of the West
The Canterbury Tales

The Historian : a novel
A Portrait of the Artist as a Young Man
Love in the Time of Cholera
Brave New World
The Fountainhead
Foucault’s Pendulum
Middlemarch
Frankenstein
The Count of Monte Cristo
Dracula
A Clockwork Orange
Anansi Boys
The Once and Future King
The Grapes of Wrath
The Poisonwood Bible
1984
Angels & Demons
Inferno
The Satanic Verses
Sense and Sensibility
The Picture of Dorian Gray
Mansfield Park
One Flew Over the Cuckoo’s Nest
To the Lighthouse
Tess of the D’Urbervilles
Oliver Twist
Gulliver’s Travels
Les Misérables

The Amazing Adventures of Kavalier and Clay
The Curious Incident of the Dog in the Night-Time
Dune
The Prince
The Sound and the Fury
Angela’s Ashes : a memoir
The God of Small Things
A People’s History of the United States : 1492-present
Cryptonomicon
Neverwhere
A Confederacy of Dunces
A Short History of Nearly Everything
Dubliners
The Unbearable Lightness of Being

Beloved
Slaughterhouse-Five
The Scarlet Letter
Eats, Shoots & Leaves
The Mists of Avalon
Oryx and Crake
Collapse : how societies choose to fail or succeed
Cloud Atlas
The Confusion
Lolita

Persuasion
Northanger Abbey
The Catcher in the Rye

On the Road
The Hunchback of Notre Dame
Freakonomics : a rogue economist explores the hidden side of everything
Zen and the Art of Motorcycle Maintenance : an inquiry into values
The Aeneid
Watership Down
Gravity’s Rainbow
The Hobbit
In Cold Blood
White Teeth
Treasure Island
David Copperfield



Sunday, May 18, 2008

Top Ten Banquet and Senior Activities

Last Tuesday night was the Top Ten Banquet for this school district, which meant that the top ten juniors and top ten seniors from each of the five high schools came together to be honored, accompanied by their parents and favorite teacher. This picture shows daughter MJ (who is #2 in her class) with CB and me after the three-hour affair was over.

This week has many events to go to for MJ and sometimes for her parents:
  • Monday: Presentation at School Board Meeting and then the Soccer Banquet for both boys and girls teams
  • Wednesday: Seniors Honor Assembly and party that night
  • Friday: Valedictorians and Salutatorians from the five high schools meet the Superintendent of schools for lunch
Also, the graduation speeches are due tomorrow, and neither of the speakers for Ray have finished the writing, which means that MJ and her boy friend are supposed to be writing right now!

Too much going on, just for seniors and their parents. And two weeks from today is the graduation, and all this will be over! Really over, because everyone will go home and MJ will go off to the summer camp where she is going to be a counselor.

I'm sure I'll fondly look back on this time as busy and happy.

Senior Sunday


Today was Senior Sunday at my former church, First United Methodist Church. There's a breakfast for the seniors and their families followed by the late church service where the seniors are recognized in their caps and gowns. There were mostly red gowns (for Ray HS, my daughter's school), but a few others were represented, too.

MJ grew up with these kids in this church since she was three years old, since we moved back to Corpus Christi from NJ. MJ is in the front row, fourth from the right.

Today's Surprise

You wait for a better world.
What's wrong with the one you have?
You wait for a liberator
To reproach your inner slave.
You wait to see the face of God,
It's staring you in the eyes.
You wait for a better future,
And you miss today's surprise.

The waiting is a problem,
To which you love to cling.
It's all about the power games,
And the delusions that they bring.
The messianic figure--
Long before you ever knew
Irrupted in creation
In the Spirit's vivid hue.

And the Spirit moves in freedom
Beyond the waiting and the now.
And the Spirit loves relating
When we don't control the "how."
Don't waste your time in waiting
For some God to intervene.
For God was never absent
From creation's epic scene.

~~Diarmuid O'Murchu

O'Murchu, Diarmuid. Catching Up with Jesus: A Gospel Story for Our Time. New York: The Crossroad Publishing Company, 2005. 94.

Saturday, May 17, 2008

"Jesus of the People"

Due to my former priest's recommendation of the book Quantum Theology, I ordered another book by author Diarmuid O'Murchu entitled Catching Up With Jesus: A Gospel Story for Our Time, which arrived in the mail today. I am really liking what I've read in the first 1 1/2 chapters, and this may motivate me to start the book with the intimidating title, Quantum Theology.

Of course, I was intrigued with O'Murchu's words about a painting of Jesus:

"In her desire to reclaim a more foundational understanding of Jesus, the contemporary American artist Janet McKenzie portrays her Jesus of the People as a black androgynous person (see National Catholic Reporter, Dec. 24, 1999). Not only is this portrayal more congruent with the archetypal identity of Jesus, but it also honors the historical alliance of God in Jesus with our ancient ancestors as we evolved in eastern Africa over several million years." (18)

© "Jesus of the People"" Late in 1999 Janet McKenzie’s painting “Jesus of the People” was selected winner of the National Catholic Reporter’s competition for a new image of Jesus by judge, Sister Wendy Beckett, host of the PBS show “Sister Wendy’s Story of Painting”. In the words of Sister Wendy, “This is a haunting image of a peasant Jesus – dark, thick-lipped, looking out on us with ineffable dignity, with sadness but with confidence. Over His white robe He draws the darkness of our lack of love, holding it to Himself, prepared to transform all sorrows if we will let Him.” "

The rest of this article is here.



Friday, May 16, 2008

Friday Five: Grand Tour

JetFrom Songbird: Many other RevGals are headed for the Festival of Homiletics in the coming week (click here for information on a RevGals meetup!!). In honor of these upcoming trips, herewith your Grand Tour Friday Five.

Name five places that fall into the following categories:

1) Favorite Destination -- someplace you've visited once or often and would gladly go again
Gold Beach, Oregon. I loved it when I was newly married and then again last year with CB!

2) Unfavorite Destination -- someplace you wish you had never been (and why)
I wish I had not gone to NJ house hunting when my mother was dying of cancer, because she had so little time left, and I didn't know it. But we were moving, and our first house deal fell through and so I had to go by myself and choose one of the houses my husband had pre-selected.

3) Fantasy Destination -- someplace to visit if cost and/or time did not matter
I wish I could be on Mount Athos in Greece, but women are not allowed. I'd like to go to Alaska, to Machu Pichu, to Iona, to Isle of Skye, and so many places!

4) Fictional Destination -- someplace from a book or movie or other art or media form you would love to visit, although it exists only in imagination
Hogwarts!

5) Funny Destination -- the funniest place name you've ever visited or want to visit
Lukulu--in the outer regions of Zambia, where I spent almost two weeks in 2006.

"Shake the gates of hell!"

Jim Winkler, General Secretary of the United Methodist General Board of Church and Society gave a commencement speech at Southwestern University in Georgetown, TX on May 10 where he urged the graduates to "shake the gates of hell. Because if you don't, things will only go from bad to worse."

He ended his speech with:

"President Bush was right when he said there is an axis of evil, but he was wrong when he said it is Iran, Iraq and North Korea. It has been said the true axis of evil is pandemic poverty, environmental degradation and a world awash in weapons. This triplet has caused enormous suffering and pain.

"The nations of the world have united behind eight Millennium Development Goals intended to make poverty history. They are:

  1. Eradicate extreme poverty and hunger
  2. Achieve universal primary education
  3. Promote gender equality and empower women
  4. Reduce child mortality
  5. Improve maternal health
  6. Combat HIV/AIDS, malaria and other diseases
  7. Ensure environmental sustainability, and
  8. Develop a global partnership for development.

"These goals comprise the best anti-terrorism campaign around. We can’t build enough guns, tanks and war planes to stop the anger and frustration that leads to terrorism. I do know, though that we now have the capacity to re-shape the world so that a good and decent life is enjoyed by all of God’s children.

"Can we imagine a new future? We must."

Go here to read the rest of the speech, which was published in this week's "Faith In Action" e-newsletter.

If you would like to subscribe to the weekly UM Church and Society "Faith in Action" newsletter, you may sign up here.

Thursday, May 15, 2008

"Bless them, change me" prayer

Every Friday morning at 8 am, our Renovare group meets at my house. We've been meeting for the past 13 years, with members moving away and others joining. We have 10 members.

There are six "questions of examen," which our group uses in a weekly fashion, one each week.

This week is the second point on the examen: "What temptations have you faced since our last meeting? How did you respond? Which spiritual disciplines has God used to lead you further into holiness of heart and life?"

Something happened at our weekly Lectio Divina group on Wednesday that fits that question for tomorrow's meeting. At least, I can say that the Lectio meditation is a spiritual discipline to answer the last part of the question.

After our meditation, one of the church staff members told me how someone had told her to pray, "Bless them, change me." And I immediately felt resentful, because that's MY prayer! I had to explain to her that I was the one who brought it to the church way back in 1995 when I returned from the treatment center for depression. An alcoholic doctor shared that prayer there in an AA meeting as a prayer to say for your enemies. (Though I always found it more useful for family members!) And then I would say, "But it's not MY prayer."

Sure, I wanted the recognition. And, yes, it is NOT MY prayer. I've realized since then that I've relished the recognition when people say it's "Jan's prayer," even though I'd always say it wasn't. False modesty.

I was certainly faced with the reality of my need for admiration, especially about my piety. God showed me how greedily I took on the praise that is rightly for God. This is another surrender of ego, of self-will, of me.

But it is pretty cool that that prayer is still being passed around! "Bless ______, change me!" (And I need changing.)


Self Will


Thou must be emptied of that wherewith thou art full, that thou mayest be filled with that whereof thou art empty.

Saint Augustine

"In India we have a flaming-hot chili pepper called “little thing” in my mother tongue. It is smaller than your little finger, so small that you don’t take it seriously; but even a tiny bite will burn your mouth. Self-will is like that; a little dose of it can cause harm for a long time.

"The remedy, in the Buddha’s language, is nirvana, from nir, “out,” plus vana, “to blow.” You don’t snuff self-will out in one day; you have to keep blowing away, in meditation and then during the day, especially in your relationships. This world is a place where we learn to return good will for ill will and love for hatred, to work harmoniously with others, and to put other people’s welfare before our own. You keep blowing for years and years and one day the fire goes out."

~~Eknath Easwaran

The Thought for the Day is today's entry from Eknath Easwaran's Words to Live By. (Copyright 1999 and 2005 by The Blue Mountain Center of Meditation.)

Select the Thought for the Day for any day of the year.

Wednesday, May 14, 2008

New Header!

Like Barbara, Julie R. Neidlinger at www.loneprairie.net designed a blog header for me! I loved Barbara's so much, I asked Julie what she could do for me, and I love the combination of the Northwest's waterfront cliffs, trees, and even daffodils. The daffodils remind me of the cemetery where my parents' ashes are interned, especially for the time of year when I was cleaning out their house. This is a very nostalgic image for me.

Contact Julie if you're interested in doing your own thing on your blog or elsewhere!

Oddly Familiar Meme

Suzy at Luminferous Ether tagged me a few days ago, and as I'm procrastinating tonight, I'll do it!

Rules:
  • The rules of the game get posted at the beginning.
  • Each player answers the questions about himself or herself.
  • At the end of the post, the player then tags five people and posts their names, then goes to their blogs and leaves them a comment, letting them know they’ve been tagged and asking them to read your blog.
  • Yadayadayada
Ten years ago:
This was about the time my devastating depression was waning. Oldest son DC was in his first year of college and the Corps at Texas A&M University. First child to leave home, and now the fourth and last one will be going away to college this fall.

Five things on today's "to do" list:
(But for me, this is for tomorrow)
  • Clean bedroom
  • Fill out Shalem situation sheet
  • Iron
  • Write two long letters that I've been putting off
  • Maybe lunch with husband
Things I'd do if I was a billionaire:
  • Buy my children and myself hybrid vehicles.
  • Fix up and live in my parents' house in Bellingham, WA half of the year and live here in TX the cooler part of the year.
  • Build and finance a (free) boarding school for orphans in Zambia.
  • Investigate where the best way to use money to help others in perpetuity and do it.
Three bad habits:
  • Procrastination
  • Being a pack rat
  • Not regularly exercising
Five places I've lived:
  • Camp Pendleton Marine Corps Base, CA (3 different times--total of 5 years)
  • Yokosuka Naval Base, Japan (3 years)
  • Bellingham, WA (7 years)
  • Corvallis, OR (4 years)
  • Corpus Christi, TX (off and on for a total of 24 years)
Five jobs I've had:
  • Typist
  • Coffee shop cashier
  • Coffee shop cook
  • Weekend coffee shop manager
  • Elem. school teacher
  • Preschool teacher
Five people I'm tagging:

Prayer Reminder

I need this reminder every day of my life to remind me about my goal in prayer, even underneath my desire for God--not for GOOD FEELINGS, but to love and yearn for the Holy One.

“… do not give up the form of prayer that comes naturally to you; and do not be disheartened if it seems at first a barren and profitless performance. It is quite possible to obtain spiritual nourishment without being consciously aware of it.”

— Evelyn Underhill, The Letters of Evelyn Underhill
(also in An Anthology of the Love of God)


Thank you to Anamchara for posting this wonderful quotation of Evelyn Underhill.

New take on the Wizard of Oz






Tuesday, May 13, 2008

Two puppies and two dogs now

We have the two puppies until Saturday. They are very loving and not too much trouble if they are frequently taken outside. Cisco and Baillie have learned to tolerate them.

Cisco is the shepherd mix, who was given to husband CB for Christmas 2006 by our kids after our old Lab died. Baillie is the cocker, whom AE gave me as a surprise when MJ was in 1st grade. The puppies are brother and sister, but look quite different. They belong to husband CB's friend who is gone for a project with AmeriCorps. He got the puppies from a litter born in the yard next to one of the Habitat houses they were building.


Troy attacking Cisco before Troy's surgery.

BJ left with hyper Troy, who had to stay in his crate much of the time so he wouldn't break open his stitches from being neutered. I felt so sorry for that poor big dog in the crate. But if he got out inside, he wanted to chase our cat. So it's better that Troy can wander BJ's trailer at will in Victoria, TX.

So Troy is our first grandpuppy. Sampson is the second, and we visited him in Austin over Mother's Day weekend along with son DC and his wife AA.

Monday, May 12, 2008

Klutzy Mom on Mother's Day!

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Z Tejas Grill is where DH and AA's wedding rehearsal dinner was held in September 2006. It was wonderful. This location in downtown Austin is the original restaurant, which now has locations in Arizona, California, Utah, and Washington, besides Texas. I never knew that until I started trying to find a picture of the wooden STAIRS at Z-Tejas!

When we learned that we would have to wait almost 2 hours to get seated for breakfast on Mother's Day, we left to go elsewhere. As I'm watching someone come up the stairs with bouquets of flowers, I tripped and fell on the stairs. I got up pretty quickly, even though husband CB later told me that he wasn't sure that I would get up! And somehow for the rest of the day of eating (at Juan in a Million Mexican restaurant, which was very good), visiting, shopping at the Outlet Mall (for MJ), and coming home, I did not realize that my ankle was swollen.

So today my ankle and foot are swollen, but only slightly sore. I certainly feel like I continue to be a klutz.

Sunday, May 11, 2008

Mother's Day


A friend from church created the above picture, Carolyn Staut.

We're home. We had fun. The house is fine, as are all the animals. It's a day of mixed feelings--for what was, what is, and for what might have been-- and still a happy day. I am thinking of friends and others who do not have living mothers and hope the day has been pleasant despite that emptiness. I am blessed to have four children, really six-- counting spouses.

Saturday, May 10, 2008

5 dogs at home while I'm gone!

Husband CB, daughter MJ, and I are in Austin, TX at son and daughter-in-law's house, both of whom are napping right now. So I am using DC's computer upstairs while the others who are not sleeping are watching old Indiana Jones movies.

Oddly enough, one son, BJ, is at our home in Corpus Christi. He came home to go fishing with friends, because he seldom has weekends off from work. He brought his big Brittany Spaniel puppy Troy.

We already have two dogs--12 year old cocker spaniel Baillie and 4 year old shephard mix Cisco. A few days ago they were joined by two part Chihuahua puppies that we're pet-stitting for. They are small and cute.

But the combination of them all seems somewhat chaotic. Already this morning Cisco bit Troy on the neck, even though Troy is bigger than Cisco now.

I'm wondering how they're all doing at our house while we're gone and BJ is probably out with his friends. . . .

If you want to see pictures of all the dogs, except the two little ones, go here.

Friday, May 9, 2008

Check out the Veracity of E-Mails!

I feel like Wyld when he wrote about his Pet Peeve. So I am expressing my irritation about forwarded emails, especially political ones. Lately, I have received various ones about Democrats' taxes, Obama's link to Kenya, windfall tax on retirement incomes, etc., etc., etc. One was really a blessing, because I learned that Obama (and others) proposed a bill to aid the accomplishment of the Millenium Development Goals: Global Poverty Act of 2007 (H.R.1302, S.2433). I am definitely for the developed nations of the world donating 0.7% GNP towards this and was glad to hear that an effort was being made towards this goal. But the original email was purporting to warn people about the bill that would have the U.N. taxing U.S. citizens.

These emails usually scare people about their future, especially financial futures. I wish people would check out the facts before sending these messages on to cause more furor and hysteria.

Check out Urban Legends at Snopes.Com.

There's also About Urban Legends. That site has these interesting links, if you have time to explore:

New / Updated: Check here for the latest Internet hoaxes & urban legends
The Top 25: Most popular topics of the past week
Definitions: Hoax, rumor, urban legend

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Prayer: Magic or True?

I've been blessed to find several posts about prayer today. I am copying the portion of one by Maggie Ross, Anglican solitary, author, and mystic:

"In our desperation to pray for a loved one in crisis or for our own needs and desires, we often feel strongly about what the best outcome should be, and we frame our prayers (and sometimes fill them with bribes) toward this end. These prayers are useful if they help us examine what we think and feel, but our knowledge and understanding of the larger picture, much less the depth of the heart of the person we are praying for, is at best fragmentary and provisional. In reality it is impossible for us to know what will work for the highest good, and unless our prayer is underpinned and ringed about with “Thy will be done” it is no better than magic.

"By contrast, true prayer tries to gather what needs attention and let go of it in the love of God. Or, to use a metaphor that arises from the story of the old man and the rainstorm, prayer creates a space in which things have a chance to work themselves out without being limited or distorted by human pressure or interference (Eph. 3:20)."

Go to Maggie Ross' blog Voice in the Wilderness to read the rest--and explore her other writings.

Another wonderful article is by Gerry May of the Shalem Institute, which is entitled "Trying to Be Contemplative." I first found a reference to it at Carl McColman's blog Anamchara: The Website of Unknowing.

(May wrote:) "Another Lama gave me similar advice. "When you sit down to meditate," he said, "stop trying to meditate. Stop meditating!" A Zen saying also warns, "The stillness you achieve by trying is always in motion." Another says, "Quit trying. Quit trying not to try. Quit quitting!""

Two problems with my prayer is striving and sometimes believing in the magic of it all, instead of sitting and loving God, as Anthony Bloom wrote about. "Thy Will be done."

Whew! Let go, let go!

Thursday, May 8, 2008

Shona Sculpture

Before this morning, I had never heard of Shona Sculpture. The Shona people live in Zimbabwe and Mozambique. The reason I am even paying attention to these people and their stone art is that I saw 12 sculptures from Zimbabwe at a friend's house this morning. DT and her family went to Africa a few months ago. She bought several wonderful pieces that look similar to this one:
Shona woman carrying her basket
Kevin Maes writes about these people and their art here. I really found this article to be interesting. I love these various kinds of Shona sculpture.

Wednesday, May 7, 2008

Silly Test for Colors

By the FIFTH try, I finally got them all right. Our mind is so programmed to react to the words we read. . . .Go and try this silly test:

John Dear's "Persistent Peace"



I heard John Dear talk at a Pax Christi meeting in San Antonio two years ago. He was funny, real, and inspirational. He told us NOT to call him "Father Dear" but "Father John." I still remember his story about making his decision to enter the priesthood after being at the chapel on the Mount of Beatitudes in Israel with bombers flying very near.

John Dear wrote:

"Then right after graduation and before I entered the Jesuits, I decided to go see where Jesus lived. I backpacked by myself for several months through Israel. The day I left, Israel invaded Lebanon and I ended up seeing war, and it scared the daylights out of me.

"I was camping out at the Sea of Galilee and saw jets dropping bombs on the border of Lebanon. I'm there reading the gospel, and I thought, if I'm going to be an authentic Christian, I have to commit myself to the Sermon on the Mount and do what I can to stop war. I have to love my enemies. That's what I've been trying to do ever since, to be part of the peace movement and to live according to the Sermon on the Mount."

Make a list

Savage Chickens - A Better World

Tuesday, May 6, 2008

Pray for our country

From The Book of Common Prayer:

Grant, O God, that your holy and life-giving Spirit may so move every human heart [and especially the hearts of the people of this land], that barriers which divide us may crumble, suspicions disappear, and hatreds cease; that our divisions being healed, we may live in justice and peace; through Jesus Christ our Lord. Amen.
(page 824)


Flag Art

Icaro Doria, a Brazilian designer, has done some amazing graphic interpretations of common flag designs for countries around the world. They’re incredibly evocative, comparing sections of each color on the flags to segments of their population. The campaign is called Meet The World, and has been running in Portugal since January. There are eight flags finished, and portray topics like the divisions about the war in Iraq (shown here), the violence against women in Africa, social inequality in Brazil, and more. Go here to see the other seven flags.

I am grateful to my oldest daughter for directing me to the flags of Icaro Doria.

Machu Picchu


Machu Picchu is a Pre-Columbian Inca site in Peru, which was probably built around 1450. Fran got me thinking about it because of today's post and its picture. I'd love to go here, but don't know if I ever will.

It was newly brought to my attention at the last Shalem Residency I attended in MD because I met the grandson of Machu Picchu's modern-day discoverer: Forgotten for centuries, the site was brought to worldwide attention in 1911 by Hiram Bingham, an American historian. I am much more interested in Machu Picchu since feeling connected to the discoverer through his grandson. (In fact, this is the person who told me about the Greek words to the Jesus Prayer.)

Choosing Health!

Thanks to
Miss Cellania.

Monday, May 5, 2008

Sentimental Celtic Christianity?

MadPriest commented on the post below about the tendency to sentimentalize and glorify the "Celtic Christianity," which I observe to be a wide American phenomenon. I loved Mary Earle's presentation on Saturday. She is a learned Episcopal priest and an excellent speaker. However, I need to remember how each of us speaks through our filters of preferences and dislikes, just the way I listen, too! Every person does this, so there is no escaping, except for the awareness that we do so. That is why community is so important--different angles are observed by various people to present a larger (but not complete) image.* So I am appreciative of MadPriest for pointing out the tendency to paint a "golden age" of Christianity. I have a lot to learn!

Now here I am quoting someone I found through google, not know anything about her except that she wrote a book--Visions and Voyages: The Story of Celtic Spirituality by Fay Sampson. However, she says that she wrote yet another book on this topic because:

"There is a tiresome amount of sentimentality about Celtic Christianity. Many people are searching for a golden age which never existed. I wanted to show them something as close to the reality as I could get. The Celtic saints were often hot-tempered and wrong-headed, but at their best gloriously in love with God and utterly careless of their own welfare. This book expresses my enthusiasm for them, but also shows they could be pretty uncomfortable to live with. Yet they have insights of real and lasting value to offer us, truths which for centuries were suppressed. Today their values resonate with people outside as well as inside the Church."

Now here's another avenue of exploration for me. . . .books by Ian Bradley are the first to find.

Still, from Saturday's talk, I gratefully take the nuggets of truth that hit me--everything is holy and I am never alone.

*HOW we see shapes WHAT we see!

Sunday, May 4, 2008

Celtic Christianity

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On Saturday I went to San Antonio with my friend MB to hear Mary Earle speak about "Celtic Christianity," which was the last session of Year 1 of Christian Mysticism: History, Wisdom and Insights. It was worth the drive of 120+ miles, even leaving at 6 am. I've vaguely heard about Celtic Christianity, but never delved into it, but now want to learn much more!

Some insights that intrigue me:
  • Our lives are to be prayer
  • Spirituality and prayers are of the ordinary things of life
  • Whole creation is full of the Presence of God
  • Gospel of John was very important to them with language of mutual indwelling
  • We are words ourselves uttered by God
  • How we see shapes what we see
  • Theology of accompaniment: always accompanied by Presence of God and the saints with us
  • All that is is in the Holy Undivided Trinity: We are never alone
  • Life of God is in all, even the worst
  • Deep invitation is to trust the current of Love
  • St. Brigit: A person without a soul friend is like a body without a head.
Let me know if you've read a really good book about Celtic Christianity, ok? I resurrected an ancient copy of Carmina Gadelica: Hymns and Incantations from the Gaelic by Alexander Carmichael, which I'd barely looked at it when I bought it years ago. Today I read and prayed some of the prayers. There's always the "right" time for something, and here is the time for that book.

And here is one of the prayers from this book that I find to be so lovely:

Bless to me, O God,
Each thing mine eye sees;
Bless to me, O God,
Each sound mine ear hears;
Bless to me, O God,
Each odor that goes to my nostrils;
Bless to me, O God,
Each taste that goes to my lips;
Each note that goes to my song;
Each ray that guides my way,
Each thing that I pursue,
Each lure that tempts my will,
The zeal that seeks my living soul,
The Three that seek my heart,
The zeal that seeks my living soul,
The Three that seek my heart.
(199)

Saturday, May 3, 2008

Be yourself!

Everybody is unique.

Do not compare yourself with anybody else

lest you spoil God’s curriculum.

~~Baal Shem Tov



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Friday, May 2, 2008

My daughter and her prom date

Last week was the Senior Prom for MJ and her date CS. They have been in school together since they were four years old. In fact, my friend LT taught their four year old preschool class and their first grade class. She also saw MJ as a newborn even before the pediatrician! Anyway, here is a picture of MJ and CS when they were four years old:

Thursday, May 1, 2008

Love the Questions

I don't want to detract from my post below about the disappointing result of voting at the United Methodist General Conference, but I want to post the poem that my first priest read to me over the phone last Saturday. Today I received an envelope from Fr. Winn, with the poem as well as a handwritten letter with quotes from the book Quantum Theology by Diarmuid O'Murchu. How wonderful to get personal mail in our mailbox!

So here is the Rilke poem he read and also mailed to me:

Be patient
toward all that is unsolved in your heart,
and try to love the questions themselves.

Do not ask
the answers that cannot be given
because
you would not be able to live with them.

And the point is
to love everything.
Love the questions now.

Perhaps
you will then
gradually
without noticing it
live along some distant day
into the answer.

~~Rainer Maria Rilke

UMC maintains its stand about homosexuals

Some delegates stand to protest the outcome of the vote. A UMNS photo by Paul Jeffrey.


I am saddened and very disappointed, as are these people at the United Methodist General Conference in Fort Worth, TX, that the majority of delegates (55%-45%) voted to keep the exclusionary wording the same for the United Methodist Church.

You can read about this at "United Methodists uphold homosexuality stance."

Rev. Richard Bates wrote:

"It's been a sad day. The Plenary Session this afternoon lasted from 2:30 until 6 pm dealing solely with the issue of homosexuality. The majority report from the committee of which Carl was chiefly responsible was defeated 55% to 45% in favor of the minority report which retained the exclusionary language, with the sole exception that they added back a phrase from an earlier Social Principles admonishing parents and friends to not alienate themselves from their GLBT loved ones.

"When the vote was posted on the giant screens, almost everyone wearing rainbow stoles stood in silent witness either with a black veil over their face or wearing a black arm band. There were probably between three and four hundred people in the visitors galleries who stood in solidarity. Gradually more than one hundred fifty people on the floor of the convention hall began also standing in silent witness to this injustice. There was a profound sadness throughout the hall and many were observed sobbing. Randy Miller, a lay delegate from the Cal-Nevada conference (and a friend of ours from our old church in San Francisco) then began to softly sing over and over again, "Jesus loves me, this I know." This was gradually picked up around the hall as more and more people joined in the singing and linked up hands. At this point today's Plenary Session was dismissed for the day. "

I've received his writings from a friend that forwards me emails from Etc., which is a grassroots organization formed in the Southwest Texas Conference to extend to persons of all sexual orientations and gender identities, full inclusion and participation in the life of the United Methodist Church, both in policy and practice.