Monday, September 13, 2010

A diet aid-->Fair Trade!

Do the supermarkets in your neighborhood have these candy racks right next to the checkout counter? The ones at our local HEB's are much wider and more abundantly supplied.

The last time I was shopping at the store, I was hungry and looked longingly at the candy bars. I rationalized that one would be about 200 calories or maybe 4 Weight Watcher points, which wouldn't be that bed. Then I remembered that none of the candy offered was FAIR TRADE, so I will not buy it. Since I am very aware of the reality of slave labor in the production of cocoa beans, I am trying to be committed in NOT buying such chocolate.

I know I am not completely supporting Fair Trade chocolate, because currently I am still eating desserts and/or ice cream with chocolate components that are most likely not Fair Trade.

I have decided that my small effort to only buy chocolate candy that is Fair Trade chocolate is one little step towards justice. This decision is also helping me to resist the impulse to buy a quick snack of a chocolate bar, which is a healthier choice for me. I feel confident that I will be able to continue on this path, narrow though it may be. (It will definitely alter my Halloween candy buying for this year!)

Sunday, September 12, 2010

Lost and Found

Today our priest Sandy Casey-Martus read this poem by David Wagoner at the beginning and end of her profound sermon on Luke 15:1-10. Read it slowly; sit and wait.

Stand still. The trees ahead and bushes beside you
Are not lost. Wherever you are is called Here,

And you must treat it as a powerful stranger,

Must ask permission to know it and be known.

The forest breathes. Listen. It answers,

I have made this place around you.

If you leave it, you may come back again, saying Here.

No two trees are the same to Raven.

No two branches are the same to Wren.

If what a tree or a bush does is lost on you,

You are surely lost. Stand still.
The forest knows

Where you are. You must let it find you.


~~David Wagoner

"Lost" from Collected Poems 1956-1976 © Indiana University Press.

Good Morning and Good Day!

Have a good day, too!

life is a garden,

not a road


we enter and exit

through the same gate


wandering,

where we go matters less

than what we notice


(The Lost Book)

Saturday, September 11, 2010

I also have a cat

Although I rarely write about our cat, we have one. She is the second cat in my life; the first arrived when MJ was in first grade, because her teacher had a kitty to give away. It also happened that her teacher was my first friend in Corpus Christi and was also the first person (besides my husband and hospital personnel) to see MJ after she was born.

So here is a cartoon about the life of our cat:

Friday, September 10, 2010

Friday Five: Insomnia Edition

MomPriest graciously jumped in today to give the RevGals a Friday Five:

So, on that note our Friday Five today will focus on sleep, or the lack there of.
1. Are you prone to sleep challenges? Insomnia, snoring, allergies? Other sleep challenges?
Ever since I was a teenager, I've had problems going to sleep. Sometimes reading helps me; other times, reading gets me so interested in the book that I cannot put it down--and so I stay up and up longer and longer.

My husband snores terribly, but that has been reduced since he has a sleep apnea machine he wears at night.

2. When you can't sleep what do you do? Toss and turn? Get up and read? Play computer games?
Toss and turn; get up and walk around the house; get up and get something to eat; read.

3. When you do sleep do you remember your dreams? Or just snippets of them?
I don't remember my dreams too often. Snippets of dreams are more likely to stick out.

4. Can you share a funny or confusing dream you've had? Or a dream you have over and over?
I forget the dream snippets too easily. When I was a child, I had a recurring and frightening dream of being in a war factory with long beams rolling over and over on to me. I think that had something to do with my dad being a Marine and things I overheard my parents talk about connected to his job.

5. When you don't sleep how do you get through the day? Lots of coffee? or a nap later in the day?
I drink cans and cans of TAB, which has a lot of caffeine in it. (I've never learned to drink coffee.) When it's cold, I drink hot tea. I only nap rarely, since I worry a nap will keep me from going to sleep that night. I usually get headaches if I've lost a lot of sleep and so need to take acetaminophen.

Imagine

Thursday, September 9, 2010

What's your vision?

"All of us live by some vision. It may be a depressing vision. It may be a very limited vision. It may be a vision that it's all going to pieces. But there is a vision, conscious or unconscious, that each of us lives by. If it's a dark vision, one that's moving toward disintegration and chaos, then we will be fearful. If it's a larger vision, if it's a universal vision, if it's a vision of God's Realm and we really believe that it's going to come into being, we'll be filled with hope. Hope is the confidence that the vision which is the biblical vision will really occur. And no one is going to be excluded. "

~~N. Gordon Cosby

Sermon (September 24 1989)

From Inward/Outward. Subscribe here.

Wednesday, September 8, 2010

More Maisie pictures!

Maisie loves to climb up on to CB's lap when he is at his computer.
Baillie is to the right.

Maisie wiggles on CB's lap and usually chews while squirming,
but she's kissing him here.

During the thunderstorm yesterday,
Maisie lay quietly under my computer desk.

Tuesday, September 7, 2010

More mysteries to read

Ever since the vacation to Alaska this summer, I have been reading lots of fiction, especially mysteries. Lately, I discovered Daniel Silva and his mysteries (through that Newsweek editorial). Beginning with The Unlikely Spy, written in 1997, I am reading his books chronologically. Our public library has copies of all of his books, and so I have a stack piled in the dining room. And two are in the car, ready to be returned to the library.

I was re-infected with the mystery bug when I read The Girl Who Kicked the Hornet's Nest, the third in the series by Steig Larsson. Reading that one reminded me of the fervor I felt when reading the Harry Potter series--I had to go back and read the entire trilogy to get the story line of Lisbeth set in my mind.

It is such fun to obsessively read, but now life is intruding upon that preoccupation. Classes and activities are starting up after Labor Day. This week ends with the first (of eight) training class for Maisie, the hyper puppy!

Still, I look forward to reading in bed before I fall asleep each night.

(UN) Labor Day

In honor of those out of work, like my oldest son DC:


From the daily cartoon I receive via email from Center for American Progress. Subscribe here.

Sunday, September 5, 2010

Suicide

Last Sunday a friend's husband committed suicide in his backyard. It was a shock to all concerned. His funeral was beautiful and well-attended. As my husband observed, this man may never have considered it if he'd known how many friends and family would come to honor him.

As I see the grief experienced by his wife and loved ones, I am thinking about suicide--mostly because I spent several years dwelling in a state of "suicidal ideation." I know I have a different understanding of suicide than most people, because I experienced the depths of depression and despair.

Looking back on those lonely times, I see how isolated and unreasonable I was. I imagined that no one in my family, from 5 year old MJ to 16 year old DC, would care if I was gone. In fact, I thought that my absence would make their lives more pleasant. If that isn't crazy, I don't know what is! My husband did not even know I was depressed until I told him a few days before I went to The Meadows treatment center in Arizona. For the past period, I was not sleeping; I was walking 6-12 miles a day; I had lost 50 pounds--but no one knew anything was wrong until I finally started talking to my therapist. Before that I would not tell anyone, because I did not want them to stop me.

From this and later times, I realize that there is no "type." This thought comes from my husband saying that this man "didn't seem like the type." Chemical imbalances that lead to depression creep up on someone so insidiously that depressed thinking seems "normal." Some people, like me, have such a strong will that we continue to do the expected until that becomes impossible.

All I can imagine about this friend's husband is that he kept going on being the person he was expected to be. The speakers at his funeral talked extensively about his giving and friendly spirit. Only the minister spoke of his despair.

I appreciated Rev. Gloria Lear talking about God being with him and that the man was choosing to be with God in the only way he knew how in that despair. God is with us whether we feel the Holy Presence or not. She kept assuring those assembled that no one was guilty; that their love was true.

I now see how irrevocably suicide affects those left behind; that thought never entered my mind when I was clinically depressed. I don't believe this man considered that either; he loved his wife and son too much to hurt them.

I have no answers about suicide. I was fortunate that I was not a man using a gun. Statistics show that men are more "successful" than women at suicide, because of the means used. I don't know why I am still here, and this man is not, or why Robin's son is gone. I just know that we are all with God, living or dying always with God.
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"I can answer this question only after the fact, because in the midst of severe clinical depression I have never felt anything redeeming about it, spiritually or otherwise. But when I emerge back into life, several things become clear. One is that the darkness did not kill me, which makes all
darknesses more bearable—and since darkness is an inevitable part of the cycle of spiritual life (as it is in the cycle of natural life) this is valuable knowledge. Two, depression has taught me that there is something in me far deeper and stronger and truer than my ego, my emotions, my intellect, or my will. All of these faculties have failed me in depression, and if they were all I had, I do not believe I would still be here to talk about the experience. Deeper down there is a soul, or true self, or "that of God in every person" that helps explain (for me, at least) where the real power of life resides. Three, the experience of emerging from a living hell makes the rest of one's life more precious, no matter how "ordinary" it may be. To know that life is a gift, and to be grateful for that gift, are keys to a spiritual life, keys that one is handed as depression yields to new life."

--Parker Palmer, Ph.D.

Saturday, September 4, 2010

Where is Fair Trade Chocolate?

Fair Trade Chocolate?

Last night CB and I went looking for Fair Trade chocolate here in Corpus Christi, TX. With all the foreign varieties at World Market, we were disappointed to find none carrying the label "Fair Trade." A few are organic, but not many.

In 2009 Cadbury came out advertising about their commitment to Fair Trade with their Dairy Milk Bar. They are still advocating that endeavor, but I am wondering if the company's recent sale to the Kraft Company will change that. Or is this Fair Trade Cadbury bar only sold in Great Britain or Europe? If anyone knows where Fair Trade Cadbury can be purchased in the United States, please let me know!

None of the bars at World Market carried the United Kingdom or international logos of Fair Trade. The UK logo is seen above and below.


Looking for this logo, I found a blog about Fair Trade, which looks quite interesting.

Friday, September 3, 2010

Friday Five: Storms of Life

Hurricane Alley

Martha brings today's Friday Five for RevGalBlogPals:

1) What's the most common kind of storm in your neck of the woods?
Hurricane Season goes from May 1 to October 1 around the Gulf Coast of Texas, so that is the most common FEAR. (This is also the time period that we pay attention to the storms growing in Hurricane Alley, pictured above.)

Probably the most recurring storm is a thunderstorm, and we've been having various thunderstorms passing through here today. Lots of rain, so when the rain stops, the steam arises!

2) When was the last time you dealt with a significant power outage?
We are lucky that we do not have power outages too often. The worst is having one in the summer so there is no air conditioning and no possibility for using a fan!

The power we have been missing most lately is the off-and-on internet connection our computers have had. In the next few weeks, our internet company is going to bring in a dedicated line to the computers.

3) Are you prepared for the next one?
We are semi-prepared, as always. When it looks like a hurricane is heading our way, we load up on water and canned goods. The garage holds the numbered plywood boards to put over the windows when absolutely necessary, which has not happened this year. . . . yet.

4) What's the weather forecast where you are this weekend?
Intermittent thunderstorms with high temperatures!

5) How do you calm your personal storms?
Talking with friends and praying.

Friends

I love M.I.L.K. greeting cards. I usually can buy some when I am in Seattle. Today someone sent me an email with lots of their images, and I fell in love with the cocker spaniel puppy. Plus, I like the sentiment, as my friends mean a lot to me.

Thursday, September 2, 2010

I love chocolate!

Organic and Fair Trade Certified True Chocolate Makers  www.theochocolate.com
Visiting the Theo Chocolate Factory in Seattle this summer introduced me into the idea of Fair Trade and artisan chocolates. The tour was fun and informative, with snacks of various kinds of Theo chocolate all along the way. I previously blogged about that here.

Since most Fair Trade chocolate seems to be dark chocolate, I have passed it by until this visit. As I wrote in the blog post below, my love for chocolate now is encompassing Fair Trade milk chocolate, which is somewhat similar to semi-sweet chocolate chips, but richer. I feel fortunate that I was introduced to Theo Chocolate and that one store here in Corpus Christi sells it. But it still takes an effort to get over to that store!

Chocolate can also be ordered online from Theo Chocolate.

I probably will stick with milk chocolate, but since I find that the cheaper U.S. milk chocolate is too sweet now, I plan to keep looking out for Fair Trade milk chocolate. I did find that I liked the milk chocolate made by Endangered Species, which does not have the Fair Trade certification on it but is organic. I am thinking that if Fair Trade chocolate is not available, it is better to buy organic certified chocolate, because the growing conditions and hopefully the working conditions are better than the cheaper brands. (Look for the amount of cocoa beans used!)

IF I can find Fair Trade chocolate in Corpus Christi, Texas, I know you can find a Fair Trade brand near where you live!

Wednesday, September 1, 2010

Fair Trade Chocolate

I have always loved chocolate, especially milk chocolate. Avoiding milk chocolate is one of the difficult things about being on a diet. However, now I am not sure that I like milk chocolate best of all, because I have tasted Fair Trade chocolate.

MJ brought me varieties of Fair Trade chocolate bars from the Whole Foods Market in San Antonio, since not much is available around Corpus Christi, TX. After eating Fair Trade milk chocolate, which has 40-45% cocoa in it, I find that I prefer it much more than the normal U.S. milk chocolate bar. I bought one (on impulse) and found it to be too sweet. Plus, such an average milk chocolate bar has only 10% cocoa and lots more sugar; no wonder I find it so much sweeter.

Since preparing for and participating in the Green Fair at First United Methodist Church this past Sunday, I have learned about the injustice and cruelty perpetrated in the production of cocoa/chocolate. An excellent source to learn about this is here. This site also has an extensive chart showing whether various chocolate companies use slave labor and/or have organic ingredients. Also the book Bitter Chocolate: The Dark Side of the World's Most Seductive Sweet by Carol Off has extensive data and information about the history and current production of chocolate.

Here is a little bit of info about cocoa and slavery:
  • West Africa collectively supplies nearly 70% of the world's cocoa AND the Ivory Coast produces nearly half of all all the world's cocoa.
  • There are about 600,000 cocoa farms in the Ivory Coast, with an estimated 15,000 children forced to work as slaves on these farms.
  • It is estimated that 90% of cocoa farms on the Ivory Coast use child labor.
Since 90% of most U.S. candy purchases are impulse buys, we can affect the large chocolate companies by NOT buying the "slave chocolate" so readily.

We can write to the big chocolate companies and ask them to buy Fair Trade cocoa. (I just ordered some from Amazon.com here.) Tell them that you expect something to be done immediately to ensure that cocoa imported into the U.S. is not harvested by enslaved children.
  • Hershey Foods Corporation, 100 Crystal A Drive, Hershey, PA 17033; (717) 534-6799--POST on their Facebook site.
  • Mars., Inc., 6885 Elm Street, McLean, VA 22101; (703) 821-4900
  • Nestle USA, (800) 225-2270

Sunday, August 29, 2010

internet dependence. . . . .


Our internet is going on again and off again, so we are unsure whether connection will continue or not. Supposedly, it was fixed with a new modem, but in the past two days the connection has been lost four different times for several hours each.

I'm glad I went to the library and got more mysteries by Daniel Silva. The Unlikely Spy was excellent and got me hooked on this author.

Tomorrow both CB and I show up for jury duty at 8 am. Which one of us will be there longest?

After that, we'll see if there's any internet connection. . . .

Saturday, August 28, 2010

Fair Trade

I finished my school project board about fair trade for tomorrow's Green Fair at First United Methodist Church. I pasted info that I typed and wrappers from Fair Trade chocolate bars, tea and coffee on it.

A couple quotes I found from Clawson's book Everyday Justice: The Global Impact of Our Daily Choices:

"Researchers estimate that there are more slaves in the world today than there were during the four hundred years of the African slave trade during the colonial era. The current estimate stands at 27 million." (59)

"Candy companies rely on impulse buys for 90% of their sales. Altering this everyday action can send a huge message to the chocolate companies." (68)

"If we purchase items made by underpaid and abused workers, we participate in their exploitation." (133)

JUST a Girl!

Friday, August 27, 2010

Future losses

A few months ago a storm hit us and the big tree in the backyard lost a large branch. The picture of that is here.

Now we noticed that there is a suspicious bulge around the middle of this same tree. It is cracking and will eventually fall over. So the poor ash tree needs to be removed.

That is so sad. We will plant another tree, but it will take years (decades) for it to grow as tall. It will take a long time for us to find shade under the tree that is in the middle of the backyard.

Other news is that our poor old cocker spaniel Baillie had two types of accidents this afternoon. Old age and poor reflexes are setting in. We will have to be more aware of forcing her outside at regular intervals, rather than letting her go outside when she thinks of it. Being blind and deaf, Baillie does not notice when Maisie and/or Cisco go out the door. (Baillie is 14 years old.)

Friday Five: Dorm Life

I had a totally different experience than most of the RevGals, because I lived at home while I went to college. Both CB's and my parents could not afford to send us away. Luckily, there was Western Washington State College (now WWU) in Bellingham.

Here are Martha's questions for today's Friday Five at RevGalBlogPals:

1) What was the hardest thing to leave behind when you went away to school for the first time?
I stayed at home, so I did not leave.

The hardest time to leave was in 1972, when my new husband and I moved to Virginia. I remember crying as we traveled away on the interstate highways.

2) We live in the era of helicopter parents. How much fuss did your parents make when you first left home?
There was very little fuss, even though neither of my parents had college degrees.

3) Share a favorite memory of living with schoolmates, whether in a dorm or other shared housing.
My mother insisted that I spend one year in a dorm on-campus. I was dating CB then, and I remember him meeting me in the lobby of the dorm, as there were strict rules at the male and female dormitories.

I remember typing in a little study room in the wee hours of the morning in the dorm, trying to finish an English paper. I always waited until the last minute (and got A's).

4) What absolute necessity of college life in your day would seem hilariously out-of-date now?
My electric typewriter and easy erase typing paper. I remember how difficult it was to put footnotes at the bottom of the pages, while keeping the correct margins.

5) What innovation of today do you wish had been part of your life in college?
Computer!

Thursday, August 26, 2010

Maisie Pictures

Cathy told me that she would like to see some pictures of Maisie. The most recent ones are with MJ after we returned from WA State a few weeks ago. Maisie loves MJ, and MJ adores Maisie.

Maisie is hyper and excited, as usual.

Can't you see how much Maisie loves MJ?


Clothesline Alaska-style

By Barbara Lavallee

I have this magnet on my refrigerator. It's from our trip to Alaska. I really like the happy art of Barbara Lavallee.

Why Glenn Beck Hates. . . .

I really like the cover of the newest edition of Sojourners magazine. You can go here to read the article "Why Does Glenn Beck Hate Community Organizers?"

If you find the cover difficult to read, here are the answers to that question:

Why Glenn Beck Hates Community Organizers--
  1. They give power to the people
  2. They change the future
  3. They help people stand together
  4. They help churches work for justice
  5. And they're making a difference
You can also sign up for Sojourners to send an email from you to tell Glenn Beck that you are a Social Justice Christian. I did!

Wednesday, August 25, 2010

The internet is up again!

We have not had internet service for a few days now, and finally we were given a new modem today. We had been told that a technician would help us today any time between 8 am and 9 pm. Luckily, he came before dinner time.

Although, CB and I did not resort to this, this cartoon gave me some chuckles. (It might have been us if the air conditioning had stopped working though!)

Monday, August 23, 2010

TODAY


in Corpus Christi, TX

Who is to change?

Be not angry that you cannot make others
as you wish them to be,

since you cannot make yourself as you wish to be.

~Thomas A Kempis


From Inward/Outward. Subscribe here.

As they say in 12-Step programs, "The only person I can change is myself." And that is hard to do!

Saturday, August 21, 2010

The caption is "No Words"

The caption for this is "no words," which is how I've been feeling lately.

I hope I am not joining the ranks of former bloggers who just leave. Since vacation to Alaska, where I pre-posted, I have had little interest in blogging, not even putting pictures from the trip here. To capture my interest tonight, I thought I'd do one of those me-me-me bullet points of what is/is not going on lately.
  • My mouth has mostly healed from my splat accident in Seattle two weeks ago. I have an annoying bump that still needs to heal inside of my mouth, which seems to be the remnant of the hole.
  • I continue in my reading of mysteries checked out from our public library. I really like the authors recommended in the "Newsweek" editorial that I mentioned here. Denise Mina and Benjamin Black are my current favorites. I am able to find more books by Denise Mina at the local libraries. I really like the young journalist in Glasgow that Mina writes about; she is an interesting character from an Irish Catholic background but in Scotland.
  • I am reading too much to be de-cluttering. It's more than likely a procrastination ploy. I am enjoying these last few weeks before all the classes and commitments start up again with the advent of Labor Day.
  • A friend asked me to help at the Green Fair she organized for next Sunday at First United Methodist Church. I was excited about reading Everyday Justice: The Global Impact of Our Daily Choices by Julie Clawson, which prompted my interest in participating in the Green Fair--especially about fair trade items. Today I bought a cardboard project board, which I will be decorating with info this week.
  • Among the interesting and disturbing topics I have learned about is the slavery and human trafficking involved in the farming and production of cocoa beans. I learned much more when I read Bitter Chocolate: The Dark Side of the World's Most Seductive Sweet by Carol Off. The author dramatically quotes a young cocoa worker saying, "When people eat chocolate, they are eating my flesh." (134)
  • Go here to see a chart that shows which chocolate companies have slave-free chocolate, as well as reading a well-researched articled about chocolate and its production.
  • Oddly, both husband CB and I are called to show up for jury duty on the same date and time--next Monday, August 30 at 8 am.
  • My friend Terry in Seattle will be 60 years old tomorrow. Happy Birthday to Terry! I will be 60 in two months.
  • CB and I saw the movie "Inception" yesterday at a matinee. We really enjoyed it. I liked it better than CB, who said it got too complicated. I want to see it again to wait until after all the credits are run to see if the top stops spinning.

Friday, August 20, 2010

Friday Five: De/Re/CLutter?

Since posting about decluttering, I am still muttering about the need for it in my house. How about you?

1. What things do you like to hang on to?
I hang on to notes and cards friends and family send me, which I put in drawers. I like to keep pictures, my kids' toys and books, cookbooks, books, clothes I might need someday. . . .

2. What is hard to let go of?
All of the above. Books are really hard for me to part with.

3. What is easy to give away?
Spontaneous giving makes that the easiest way to give things away.

4. Is there any kind of stumbling block connected with cleaning out?
I get hung up on giving things to the "right"person who will like it. The other stumbling block is imagining how long the cleaning will take, so I avoid that entirely.

5. What do you like to collect, hoard, or admire?
Books; Zuni corn maidens; cards and stationery; quotes

Bonus: whatever you can think of that goes along with this muttering about cluttering.

RECYCLE!

Try to Freecycle in your community. It's easy!

In fact, I blogged about Freecycle when I first heard about it.

Wednesday, August 18, 2010

Decluttering (all the STUFF)

I really needed to read this today. I also need to remember this. And I need to act upon this.

Leo Babauta writes for Zen Habits:

If you’re holding onto stuff because you feel it would be a waste of good money if you got rid of it, here is the answer you are looking for:

I hereby release you of your burden.

You are free. You bought these items with hard-earned money, and you don’t want that money to go to waste, so you’ve been holding onto them. It’s a burden that keeps you from freeing yourself of these unneeded possessions — it forces to you keep the space they occupy, to maintain these possessions, to constantly see them every day even if you don’t want them, to walk around them or trip over them or live in a cramped, cluttered space. This is a burden, paying penance for your initial wasted expenditure of cash.

But: the waste was when you bought it, not when you get rid of it. You bought something you didn’t really need — and the real waste would be to ignore this and not learn from it.

So here’s how to make sure that by decluttering possessions you don’t need, it’s not a waste:

1. Learn your lesson. This might sound condescending, but it’s not meant to be — if we don’t realize our mistakes, we can’t learn and avoid them in the future. So realize: you shouldn’t have bought the items in the first place. Avoid doing this in the future, by buying as little as you possibly can. Stop being a consumer, and start living.

2. Realize that keeping the items is wasteful. If you keep stuff you don’t need, it costs you money — you pay for the space to store it (lots of possessions means bigger homes or storage containers), you pay to maintain it, it costs you time (and therefore money) to keep it and go around it, you have to fix things when they break, you have to sort through things to find things, you spend time moving things around, and so on. Getting rid of this unnecessary stuff frees you of this waste.

3. Find someone who will use it. It’s a waste to keep something when you’re not using it (a good reason car-sharing is a much better use of cars than private ownership, btw). So find a friend or family member who needs it, or give it to Goodwill or some other such charity, or donate it to a library that will let many others use it. Consider starting a neighborhood tool library, or a book-sharing spot in your community. When someone else uses your items, it’s not a waste.

4. Test the waters. If you’re unsure of whether you’ll need something later, put it to a test: have you used it in the last six months? If not, you probably don’t need it (unless it’s seasonal — then ask if you needed it in the last year). If you’re still unsure, box it up with today’s date, and check on it in six months — if you never needed to open the box, you didn’t need it.

5. Don’t let your possessions own you. If you hold on to possessions because you feel it would be wasteful to get rid of them, they are controlling you. They are dictating your life, rather than you creating the life you want, living how you want to live. Let go of possessions and be free — living otherwise would be the true waste.

6. Make better use of your time and space. Once you’re freed of this clutter, don’t waste your freed time on acquiring more stuff. Spend your time on incredible experiences, not on possessions. In the end, get a smaller house, now that you need to store less stuff, and help save the earth while you’re at it (a smaller home, along with ditching your car and becoming vegan, is one of the most important things you can do to reduce your carbon emissions).

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Monday, August 16, 2010

Fairbanks, Alaska

We were in Fairbanks, Alaska on July 19 and 20. From our bed and breakfast inn we could walk downtown across this bridge over the Chena River, which runs through the city.

There were lots of blooming flowers in Fairbanks, with many flower boxes on the bridges and houses.

We went on a paddle boat ride along the Chena River which moved into the Tanana River south of town. The Binkley family has operated this tour business with paddle boats since 1955, starting with the Discovery I.

Tanana and Chena Rivers merging

So many Alaskan rivers look dirty, because of the run-off water from melting glaciers and the accompanying silt.

Sunday, August 15, 2010

Now is the Time

Now is the time to know
That all that you do is sacred.

Now, why not consider
A lasting truce with yourself and God.

Now is the time to understand
That all your ideas of right and wrong
Were just a child's training wheels
To be laid aside
When you finally live
With veracity
And love.

Hafiz is a divine envoy
Whom the Beloved
Has written a holy message upon.

My dear, please tell me,
Why do you still
Throw sticks at your heart
And God?

What is it in that sweet voice inside
That incites you to fear?

Now is the time for the world to know
That every thought and action is sacred.

This is the time
For you to compute the impossibility
That there is anything
But Grace.

Now is the season to know
That everything you do
Is sacred.
~ Hafiz ~

from July 21, 2009 Panhala
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Saturday, August 14, 2010

Use your Library!

Jon Meacham, the recently retired editor of Newsweek, wrote a column defending mysteries in the August 9, 2010 issue of Newsweek. I decided to pay attention to him because he liked mysteries by P. D. James and Henning Mankell, as do I. So I made a list of the new (to me) authors he recommended and visited my local library yesterday to find some of their books.

Since then I have read two mysteries by Denise Mina (recommended to Meacham by Anna Quindlen) and am now reading an even better book by a different author: A Trace of Smoke by Rebecca Cantrell.

Having library books seems to give me permission to read, read, read. It's kept me from posting about Alaska; I'm going back to Cantrell's debut mystery now.

Friday, August 13, 2010

Blueberry Grunt Recipe

Vegan Yum Yum writes:
"Yeah, I’d never heard of a blueberry grunt, either. Until I became friends with Sandy. Ever since we became friends, I couldn’t use the word “blueberry” without her saying “Mmmm, blueberry grunt…” eyes half-closed and smiling. I knew it was one of her favorite desserts, but I couldn’t bring myself to make something called a grunt."

Blueberry Grunt melds together so many flavors to make it luscious--molasses, lemon juice, and spices! My friend Nancy asked for the Blueberry Grunt recipe, so here it is:

Blueberry Grunt

3 cups blueberries
1/3 cup sugar
1/4 tsp. cinnamon
1/4 tsp. cloves
(1/4 tsp. nutmeg, which I omitted)
1/4 cup molasses
2 Tbsp. lemon juice

Biscuit Crust
1 cup flour
1 1/2 tsp. baking powder
1/4 tsp. salt
4 Tbsp. butter
1 egg, lightly beaten
1/3 cup milk

"Blueberry Grunt is--no one knows quite why, but it is--a grunt rather than a buckle.

"Wash and pick over the berries and spread them in a deep 9-inch pie pan. Combine the sugar and spices and sift the mixture over the berries. Dribble the molasses over them and sprinkle them with the lemon juice. Bake the berries at 375 degrees F. for 5 minutes. Remove the pan from the oven. Increase the oven heat to 425 degrees.

"Sift the flour with the baking powder and salt and blend in the butter. Stir in the egg and as much of the milk (or more) as is needed to produce a soft dough. Drop the dough by tablespoons over the berries and spread it evenly to cover them. Bake 20 minutes, or until the biscuit crust is well browned."

Beard, James. James Beard's American Cookery. Boston: Little, Brown and Company, 1972. 724-725.

Happy Left Hander's Day!

August 13 is Left Hander's Day, which MJ advised me of yesterday. She is the only left handed member of our family; I could tell that she was going to be left handed when she was an infant.

She told me that in her psychology class this past year she learned that left handed people more easily use both sides of their brain than right handed people.

So Happy Left Hander's Day! Show your appreciation of yourself (if you're left handed) and others who are left handed today.

Friday Five: Dog Days of Summer

Singing Owl at RevGalBlogPals suggests this timely (for me) FF on the HOT days of summer that drag on and on in south TX.


1. What is the weather like where you live?
It is hot and humid in south TX. High temperatures near 100 degrees F and low temperatures at 80 degrees each morning. I do not want to be outside at all. What a relief it is to get inside the air-conditioned car or walk into a cool HEB supermarket!

2. Share one thing you love about this time of year.
When the kids were little, we loved to take them to the beach every Sunday. (I guess that's a "memory.")

It's a lazy time; there are vacations; the kids come to visit and stay; I can hang clothes out on the clothesline to dry every day.

3. Share one thing you do NOT love about this time of year.
The HEAT and HUMIDITY that lasts until OCTOBER!!!

4. How will you spend the remaining days leading up to Autumn?
Since "Autumn" really does not arrive until the end of October, I do not think of it happening until then. This is the time I struggle most with the extreme heat, because I grew up and taught school in the NW, where it starts feeling like fall this time of year.

However, all my volunteer and teaching activities start up after Labor Day. So I have to start getting ready for those. Also, I want to get back into the cleaning out mode, which I began before our trip to Alaska.

5. Share a good summer memory.
(See #2 above)

Wonderful memories of taking my children back to Bellingham, WA for a month every summer. My mother and I would take them to park after park.

Bonus: What food says SUMMER to you?
Fresh berries (and other fruit)! Boundless supplies of strawberries, raspberries, blackberries, and blueberries when we visit in the NW!! My mother used to grow all but blackberries in her backyard; how the kids (and I) liked to pick them on our visits home!

Thursday, August 12, 2010

Baking!

I am almost ready to bake blueberry grunt, which I used to bake when we lived in NJ in the early '90s. I bought a 2 lb. box of blueberries at Sam's and about 1/3 were thrown out. With MJ still here and me being back home, I feel like baking!

The welcoming aroma of baked bread is coming from the oven right now. Having 1/2 a cooked sweet potato left over from last night, I decided to try a sweet potato yeast bread recipe from an old cookbook by James Beard that my mother gave me when I was newly married: James Beard's American Cookery, which is now out of print.

So I am not blogging about Alaska. In fact, I have not even labeled my photos. CB has meticulously tagged his by consulting maps to get precise locations. That seems like too much work to me, but it is very nice as you can see with this picture of me that CB placed at an Alaskan location while we were on the ferry.


The bread is so good that I am going to copy the recipe here. I adapted it somewhat because I had about 1 cup of sweet potato left over, so here is the recipe I used:

Sweet Potato Batter Bread

2 pkg. active dry yeast
1/2 cup warm water with 1 tsp. sugar
1 cup mashed sweet potato or yam
1/3 cup sugar
5 Tbsp. butter, melted
1 Tbsp. salt
3 eggs
about 5 cups flour

Now to quote James Beard:
"This batter bread, made with sweet potatoes, might be called a quick bread and is extremely pleasant to eat.

"Proof the yeast in the warm water. Add the mashed sweet potato, sugar, butter, salt, and eggs, and 1 1/2 cups flour. Beat several minutes in an electric mixer or by hand to blend well. Beat in the remaining flour to form a rather stiff dough. Cover, and allow to rise in a warm draft-free spot until doubled in bulk, about 1 1/2-2 hours. Stir vigorously with a wooden spoon. Transfer to two well-buttered loaf pans. Allow to rise again until doubled in bulk. Bake at 375 degrees 35 to 45 minutes, or until nicely browned. After 5 minutes, turn out on a rack to cool."

Beard, James. James Beard's American Cookery. Boston: Little, Brown and Company, 1972. 788.

Tuesday, August 10, 2010

Pictures

I am going to start writing about our Alaska and Washington vacation tomorrow and will post pictures, too. Both CB and I had digital cameras, so it will be difficult to decide which pictures to put up here.

Since I went to the doctor and had my two stitches out this morning and then had my teeth examined by my dentist, I am assured that I am healing well. The only picture taken after the accident was with Terry (the next day) when we ate breakfast at Portage Bay again. I don't look as bad in the picture as I felt or how I looked "in real life." My mouth felt so swollen that it was hard to smile!

Terry and Jan
Seattle, WA

Monday, August 9, 2010

Splat!

I needed a sign like this on Thursday when I fell flat on my face, not being aware of "the present moment" at all. While CB was flying back to TX from Seattle, AE, MJ and I were wandering around downtown Ballard. When it was time to return to our parked car, we were rushing along and suddenly I fell SPLAT! My sandal had caught on the uneven sidewalk by a construction site.

I remember AE asking me if I could get up; as I lay there, I said "I don't know." Blood was flowing out of my mouth, but I was more concerned with my knee hurting. A nice lady gave me many tissues from her purse as I tried to stand.

AE drove me back to her house where the girls gave me sacks of ice to put on my mouth and on my knee. (As I write this on Monday, I can say that ice really helps a body to recover. I have a huge bruise on my left knee, but hardly any on the right which I kept ice on for hours.) AE called friend Terry and the local hospital to see where I should go with a hole gaping open from below my lower lip.

She and MJ got me to the Ballard Swedish Medical Center Emergency Room. Luckily, it was in the mid-afternoon and not in a major Seattle hospital. AE filled out all the paperwork for me, and I was surprised that I was shaking so much when I tried to sign my name. I was well taken care of and ended up with two stitches below my lip. The shots to prepare for the stitches were the worst part of all that!

Even with the ice, my mouth and chin were very swollen. It looked like someone punched me in the mouth! (Today is the first day there seems to be little swelling; tomorrow my own doctor will take out the stitches.)

Daughters AE, MJ, and KA were wonderful at taking care of me and later brought me Thai soup while I lay on Terry and Dennis' basement guest bed. It was so comforting to have family and friends caring for me. I feel very fortunate that I did not hurt myself more or break something.

Sunday, August 8, 2010

Back home!


I am home in Corpus Christi. It is nice to see the sunshine, but NOT to feel the heat and humidity! Still, I am glad to be home.

Wednesday, August 4, 2010

I'll be back on Sunday!

Well, before this long trip to Alaska and WA State, I pre-posted until a few days ago, because I thought I would be posting at friends' and family's computers. Nope! I'll be back more consistently on Sunday.

MJ and I will fly back to hot and humid Corpus Christi, TX on Sunday--it will be 20-30 degrees F. hotter there. I am so glad our house has air conditioning!

We had a wonderful four days in Bellingham with CB's family. Now we have four days in Seattle.

Today was a lot of fun. AE and KA took us out to breakfast at Portage Bay Cafe in Ballard (a neighborhood in Seattle), which is one of my favorite places in the morning because of their heaping bowls of berries, butter, and whipped cream to liberally apply to meals. Then we went on a tour of the Theo Chocolate Factory, which is not just a melter (as most chocolate factories in the USA)but a complete and organic chocolate factory. At almost every step of the tour, we were given a wooden bowl of chocolate chunks to pass around and sample. I could not try the DARK chocolate, which was 91% cocoa, but CB held it in his mouth to melt it. (I wish I liked dark chocolate, because I know it is healthier to eat.)

Then we went up on the observation deck of the Smith Tower, which was one of the first skyscrapers in the USA. The view was better than the one seen from the Space Needle.

Tonight we girls (MJ, AE, KA, Terry and me) are going out for dinner at a vegetarian restaurant called Carmelita's. I am sure that will be wonderful. I am so lucky AE and KA have planned such interesting things for us to do.

See you all on Sunday--unless our flights are delayed.

Tuesday, August 3, 2010

Today is God

In the beginning was God,
Today is God,
Tomorrow will be God.
Who can make an image of God?
He has no body.
He is the word which comes out of your mouth.
That word! It is no more,
It is past, and still it lives!
So is God.

~~Pygmy

Tutu, Desmond. An African Prayer Book. NY: Doubleday, 1995. 8.

Monday, August 2, 2010

Last Day in Bellingham

I have not lived in Bellingham since 1972, but with visits back here every summer, I find that I remember most of the roads, though things have changed. Bellingham is a more prosperous looking city: little houses have been remodeled and enlarged; new houses are often gigantic. (I always wonder who cleans all those rooms??)

It is a wonderful place to live, so why aren't CB and I in my parents' house instead of renting it? It is the only steady home I had until we bought our first house in TX in 1979, so it is precious to me.

We stayed in TX because MJ had to graduate from high school two years ago, and now we seem to be waiting until she finishes college. Another magnet for staying in TX is that our first grandchild will be born in November and will be living in Austin. That is a four-hour drive from Corpus Christi, which is easily do-able. Three of our four children live in Texas, but one (AE) lives in Seattle. The other reasons are listed in the recent Friday Five.

This visit re-acquainted me with my sister-in-law CH, and I would love to have time and opportunities to get to know her better. Her kindness, authenticity, and intelligence stand out to me now. I was also touched that she is the only one in CB's family to ask if it is difficult being an "orphan" (It is sometimes, when I'm around so many of CB's family and realize I have no parents, siblings, and other relatives. BUT I do have children, their partners, a husband and a soon-to-be-born grandchild). Still, I appreciated CH noticing that very much. It does not have to happen again, but I needed that acknowledgement somehow.

Tomorrow we go to Seattle to be with daughters AE and KA as well as friends Terry and Dennis. These are the friends who drove their two vehicles up to Bellingham on Saturday, so we could have the use of one of them! My children view Terry and Dennis as their aunt and uncle, so that's more family!

By next week we'll be back home in hot, humid Corpus Christi, TX. We still have to decide what we will do with my parents house in Bellingham. . . .Someday we have to make a decision.

Our Masks

Jean Vanier writes:

"We all tend to wear masks, the mask of superiority or of inferiority, the mask of worthiness or of victim. It is not easy to let our masks come off and discover the little child inside us who yearns for love and for light, and who fears being hurt. Forgiveness, however, implies the removal of these masks, an acceptance of who we really are: that we have been hurt, and that we hurt others."

Go here to read the rest of this excerpt, which was sent to me by email through Inward/Outward. Being on CB's parents' computer, I cannot seem to copy and paste and so I do not want to copy and type the entire article.

It ends with:
"As the desire grows in us to be whole and struggle for this wholeness in ourselves, in others, in our community, and in the world, and as we desire to be free in order to free others, a new energy is born within us, an energy that flows from God."

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