Sunday, March 31, 2013
Happy Easter!
Today Chuck and I will go to two church services, motivated both by him singing with the choir at both services and by the beautiful liturgies we will participate in. At 7 am there is the Great Vigil of Easter with the new fire lighting the Paschal Candle and the traditional 11 o'clock service with exclamations of joy and the return of Alleluias as the Risen Christ is proclaimed with everyone ringing bells.
In years past, our children have come home for Easter, but not this year. To see a few pictures of those visits, click on 2009 and 2012. The last pictures show Avery a year ago when she seemed more babyish. Avery looks much older here in a new one opening Easter presents from her other grandparents, Mimi and Pop:
Saturday, March 30, 2013
Holy Saturday: The Space Between
Christine Valters Paintner writes of Holy Saturday as "The Space Between."
She starts off her article like this:
Don't surrender your loneliness so quickly.
Let it cut more deep.
Let it ferment and season you as few human
Or even divine ingredients can.
Something missing in my heart tonight
Has made my eyes so soft,
My voice so tender,
My need of God
Absolutely clear. ~ Hafiz
Let it ferment and season you as few human
Or even divine ingredients can.
Something missing in my heart tonight
Has made my eyes so soft,
My voice so tender,
My need of God
Absolutely clear. ~ Hafiz
"I love the wide space of Holy Saturday that lingers between the suffering and death of Jesus on Friday and the vigil Saturday night proclaiming the return of the Easter fire. For me, Holy Saturday evokes much about the human condition—the ways we are called to let go of things or people, identities or securities and then wonder what will rise up out of the ashes of our lives. The suffering that we experience because of pain or grief or great sorrow and we don't know if we will ever grasp joy again. Much of our lives rest in that space between loss and hope. Our lives are full of Holy Saturday experiences.
"In their book The Last Week: What the Gospels Really Teach About Jesus's Final Days in Jerusalem, Marcus Borg and John Dominic Crossan write:
Easter
completes the archetypal pattern at the center of the Christian life:
death and resurrection, crucifixion and vindication. Both parts of this
pattern are essential: death and resurrection, crucifixion and vindication. When one is emphasized over the other distortion is the result. The two must be affirmed equally.
Go HERE to read the rest of her piece on Holy Saturday, with these suggestions to try today:
"Much of our lives are spent in Holy Saturday places but we spend so much energy resisting, longing for resolution and closure. Our practice this day is to really enter into the liminal zone, to be present to it with every cell of our being.
"Make some time on Holy Saturday to sit with all of the paradoxes of life. Bring yourself as fully present as you can to the discomfort of the experience. Rest in the space of waiting and unknowing and resist trying to come up with neat answers or resolutions. Imagine yourself on a wild border or standing on a threshold, knowing that you cannot fully embrace what is on the other side until you have let this place shape and form your heart. When you notice your attention drifting or your mind starting to analyze, return to your breath and the present moment. Allow yourself to feel whatever arises in this space. Honor the mystery."
Friday, March 29, 2013
Good Friday: Inner Challenge
Lynn Jericho composed a set of questions to ask oneself today for the Inner Challenge of Good Friday:
As I wrote the questions below, I realized they ask you to experience yourself as a victim or a perpetrator. A victim has a perpetrator, a perpetrator, a victim.
But the I-beyond-consciousness does not live in stories where there are victims or perpetrators. Certainly, Christ Consciousness is not about victimhood, shame, guilt, hatred or other feelings, attitudes, or judgments that separate, divide, or kill the heart or soul of anyone, especially your own.
As you look at these questions, can you feel the pain without shame, guilt, hatred, any feeling that is not permeated with love.
False Witness
Do you lie about yourself to yourself, to others?
And when have you silently born false witness on another's soul? Why?
If we don't offer the dark, selfish parts of ourselves compassion and forgiveness, will we ever be whole - resurrect into a new vital experience of I.
The Judging
Do you know the prejudiced judge in your own soul that accuses the part of you that longs to speak the truth, love freely, do powerful deeds?
Have you accused, judged, and condemned yourself or others?
Have you ever washed your hands of standing for the innocence of another or the strength of your own goodness?
The Flogging and Mocking
Have you had to suffer the pain of flogging and the humiliation of mockery?
What is self-flogging? Is it your constant self-doubt, your food binging, your obsession with knowing everything, your inability to earn enough money? And self-mockery?
What do you do when you look in the mirror? Do you mock your body? Do you write from your heart and then rip it to shreds? Do you tell yourself you are unworthy and undeserving?
The Bearing of the Cross
Often the crosses we bear are the weight of our own defenses and identities we created to hide or avoid or survive. What are the crosses that you bear?
Does anyone ever offer to help you carry them by listening to your stories, caring for your suffering, seeing the truth of your heart?
The Crucifixion and Death
So often our destiny requires that we suffer and die to ourselves. Each year on Good Friday we can ask ourselves have I died to myself so that I can live for others?
We don't need to say yes, but it is very good to ask ourselves the question and be willing to be surprised by the answer.
As I wrote the questions below, I realized they ask you to experience yourself as a victim or a perpetrator. A victim has a perpetrator, a perpetrator, a victim.
But the I-beyond-consciousness does not live in stories where there are victims or perpetrators. Certainly, Christ Consciousness is not about victimhood, shame, guilt, hatred or other feelings, attitudes, or judgments that separate, divide, or kill the heart or soul of anyone, especially your own.
As you look at these questions, can you feel the pain without shame, guilt, hatred, any feeling that is not permeated with love.
False Witness
Do you lie about yourself to yourself, to others?
And when have you silently born false witness on another's soul? Why?
If we don't offer the dark, selfish parts of ourselves compassion and forgiveness, will we ever be whole - resurrect into a new vital experience of I.
The Judging
Do you know the prejudiced judge in your own soul that accuses the part of you that longs to speak the truth, love freely, do powerful deeds?
Have you accused, judged, and condemned yourself or others?
Have you ever washed your hands of standing for the innocence of another or the strength of your own goodness?
The Flogging and Mocking
Have you had to suffer the pain of flogging and the humiliation of mockery?
What is self-flogging? Is it your constant self-doubt, your food binging, your obsession with knowing everything, your inability to earn enough money? And self-mockery?
What do you do when you look in the mirror? Do you mock your body? Do you write from your heart and then rip it to shreds? Do you tell yourself you are unworthy and undeserving?
The Bearing of the Cross
Often the crosses we bear are the weight of our own defenses and identities we created to hide or avoid or survive. What are the crosses that you bear?
Does anyone ever offer to help you carry them by listening to your stories, caring for your suffering, seeing the truth of your heart?
The Crucifixion and Death
So often our destiny requires that we suffer and die to ourselves. Each year on Good Friday we can ask ourselves have I died to myself so that I can live for others?
We don't need to say yes, but it is very good to ask ourselves the question and be willing to be surprised by the answer.
Thursday, March 28, 2013
Praying at Gethsemane
Gethsemane
by Mary Oliver
The grass never sleeps.
Or the roses.
Nor does the lily have a secret eye that shuts until morning.
Jesus said, wait with me. But the disciples slept.
The cricket has such splendid fringe on its feet,
and it sings, have you noticed, with its whole body,
and heaven knows if it ever sleeps.
Jesus said, wait with me. And maybe the stars did, maybe
the wind wound itself into a silver tree, and didn’t move,
maybe,
the lake far away, where once he walked as on a
blue pavement,
lay still and waited, wild awake.
Oh the dear bodies, slumped and eye-shut, that could not
keep that vigil, how they must have wept,
so utterly human, knowing this too
must be a part of the story.
by Mary Oliver
The grass never sleeps.
Or the roses.
Nor does the lily have a secret eye that shuts until morning.
Jesus said, wait with me. But the disciples slept.
The cricket has such splendid fringe on its feet,
and it sings, have you noticed, with its whole body,
and heaven knows if it ever sleeps.
Jesus said, wait with me. And maybe the stars did, maybe
the wind wound itself into a silver tree, and didn’t move,
maybe,
the lake far away, where once he walked as on a
blue pavement,
lay still and waited, wild awake.
Oh the dear bodies, slumped and eye-shut, that could not
keep that vigil, how they must have wept,
so utterly human, knowing this too
must be a part of the story.
Title: | Praying at Gethsemane |
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Notes: | Dr. He Qi is a professor at the Nanjing Union Theological Seminary and a tutor for master candidate students in the Philosophy Department of Nanjing University. He is also a member of the China Art Association and a council member of the Asian Christian Art Association. |
Date: | 2001 |
Artist: | He Qi |
Material: | Other |
Country: | China |
Wednesday, March 27, 2013
Our Lord of Flaked Paint

sallow skin and emerald robes,
Our Lord of Mudpuddle Eyes
that look away in weary irritation,
no one can touch your loneliness,
God cut off from God.
You who flamed a world into being
with only words, stood
in the midst of bickering men,
fig trees dying, and sparrows
falling to the ground.
Were there days when heat and dust,
the smell of stale crowds
pushing you from place to place,
asking for one more resurrection,
food for thousands
or withered hands healed,
made you want to slash the canvas,
fly back to heaven and start fresh
on some new world far away?
Days where your head ached
from sun on sand and water,
where your throat scraped raw
from shouting Blessed are. . . to men
who would go home, forget, and return
to nail you to a piece of wood?
No one understood your stories,
could grasp that you would trade
legions of angels
for nine ungrateful lepers,
the friend who turned you in,
and never enough sleep.
Our Lord of Omnipotent Frustration
with your halo like a setting sun,
your hand is raised as if to bless me,
though I can't imagine why.
~~Jana-Lee Germaine
Christian Century, November 3, 2009.
Tuesday, March 26, 2013
Monday, March 25, 2013
This Lenting
Breakthrough
This lenting
is a longing, looking,
isolating and locating process,
a passing of the time between
what has to be, what may become,
a late, last, solitary lingering
among the soiled and crusted snowbanks
of deep-drifted hurt and disappointment
seeking out those tender-tough new shoots
that pierce the calloused surface
of all losing with the agony
of life becoming green again.
is a longing, looking,
isolating and locating process,
a passing of the time between
what has to be, what may become,
a late, last, solitary lingering
among the soiled and crusted snowbanks
of deep-drifted hurt and disappointment
seeking out those tender-tough new shoots
that pierce the calloused surface
of all losing with the agony
of life becoming green again.
by J. Barrie Shepherd.
Saturday, March 23, 2013
Friday, March 22, 2013
Friday Five: Take a Breath!
Deb brings today's Friday Five to RevGalBlogPals:
It's the week before Holy Week. Even if you are the non-preaching type, there's plenty going on in most of our homes religious. I think we all need a collective deep breath. :)
This week's Friday Five is simply a moment to BREATHE. Stop and tell us five ways that you "catch your breath" and then move on in the work God calls you to do.
Are these five things people? places? music? hobbies? chocolate? Or perhaps a memory?
1. Look at my blooming daffodils, which are a rare sight in Corpus Christi, TX.
When I see them, I feel like the "stones shouting out" (Luke 19: 40); LIFE bursting out! I also feel my daughters love as they sent this little note with the daffodils:
"Thinking of you from rainy Seattle (with love)"
Love bursting out if I only look!
2. As the whale spouts up above: Take a deep breath!
Long ago, I was taught that panic attacks would be avoided or diminished through deep breathing. Taking some deep breaths, which must be done slowly, brings a sense of peace.
I am glad I no longer have panic attacks. However, deep breathing is helpful in everyday life.

4. Pet our dogs and sometimes our cat.
The three dogs are always willing, but the cat only likes her head scratched at her discretion.
5. Laughing with friends in person or via social media like Facebook. Also, looking at my label of CARTOONS that I have collected on this blog since it was started in 2006.
Thursday, March 21, 2013
Wednesday, March 20, 2013
Daffodils!
I love daffodils and took pictures of them during our recent trip to Washington State. And then tonight, I was totally surprised by my daughters from Seattle--they sent me a box of daffodils! Daffodils in Texas seem odd, but I am happy that they are here for a few days.
Here is a picture I took of my friend Terry by some daffodils in Seattle. I never thought to ask her to take a picture of me with them; now I wish I had.
Here is a picture I took of my friend Terry by some daffodils in Seattle. I never thought to ask her to take a picture of me with them; now I wish I had.
Friday, March 15, 2013
Friday Five: Technology
Although you won't know this, I am pre-posting this ten days ahead of schedule, because my husband and I are going to be in Washington State during his spring break (from teaching at a local community college). His parents have very recently moved into a senior living facility. We will be staying at their home, which will not have some of the furniture and supplies like we are used to. What I am dreading is no computer, tv or telephone, which also means no wifi connection. This is showing my dependence upon these technologies.
For this Friday Five, let us explore our use of and desire for such items.
1. What types of technologies, like cell phones, computers, tvs, etc., do you routinely use? How frequently?
I have an old-fashioned sliding cell phone that seems archaic nowadays. I like using the desk top computer at home, which has been unavailable while we traveled to WA State. I most frequently use it and the Kindle Fire various times during the day, since I am retired.
I don't text. My phone makes it difficult, and we don't pay for texting. I am thinking I need to add this to my phone, as my grown children text more frequently than call, especially our third son who rarely ever calls. Maybe this is a way to say better connected.
Use of the Kindle Fire was radically reduced while we were in Bellingham, with no wifi available. It is nice to be back at a desk top computer (See how old I am??) at our friends Terry and Dennis' home.
2. What social media and/or games do you like to play? How often? On which device do you occupy yourself? Which method of social media do you prefer?
I am addicted to playing Words With Friends, though I am usually the low scorer in each game. I love that "ding" when someone has played, and I need to go and take my turn! This is on my Kindle Fire.
I like Facebook and to a lesser extent Pinterest.
3. Do you separate online activities between home and work? Or is it all the same everywhere?
Since I don't work, I am separated only by access to wifi.
4. Do you have a smart (or I-) phone?
No.
5. What do you wish you had--or do not have--in relation to these devices?
I halfway desire a smart phone and/or an Ipad, but I have the Kindle Fire. The only thing I don't like about it is lack of internet availability in areas where I cannot access wifi. I guess that's where my desire comes in--I'd like to have internet connection everywhere! But since I don't work, that seems silly.
Bonus: What is the difference between your attitude towards these means of technology and a generation older or younger than you?
An obvious difference between my grown children and eventually grandchildren is the use (or non-use) of texting. My children are between the ages of 33 and 23 and are proficient users of technology. I can already see that my 2 year old granddaughter Avery is adept at finding pictures on her dad's Ipad. They'll have to instruct me for future uses, which I may not "get."
Chuck and I are able to use a desk top computer well, but that seems to be heading to non-existence. Hope my learning ability continues along with the patience of my children in instructing me!
Thursday, March 14, 2013
Thursday in Seattle
I am writing this with my Kindle using one finger to type, so this will probably be short.
- One week in Washington State today.
- First four days in Seattle: with daughters AE and KA and with friends Terry and Dennis. Good company and yummy food!
- In Bellingham, Chuck and I stayed at his parents' house, which they left for a retirement community days before. We cleaned some, hopefully helping a little bit, as Chuck's sisters and brother must prepare the house to be sold.
- We were there for 3 1/2 days and came back to Seattle this afternoon (in the rain).
- One more day here before we fly away on Saturday morning. Chuck goes back to Corpus Christi, and I go to Salt Lake City to visit MJ for two days.
- If all goes well, I will return on Monday night and be ready to start the newest Richard Rohr book "THE IMMORTAL DIAMOND" at the Wisdom Class on Tuesday morning. It is such a good book!
Wednesday, March 13, 2013
The Guest House
This being human is a guest house.
Every morning a new arrival.
A joy, a depression, a meanness,
some momentary awareness comes
as an unexpected visitor.
Welcome and entertain them all!
Even if they're a crowd of sorrows,
who violently sweep your house
empty of its furniture,
still, treat each guest honorable.
He may be cleaning you out
for some new delight.
The dark thought, the shame, the malice,
meet them at the door laughing,
and invite them in.
Be grateful for whoever comes,
because each has been sent
as a guide from the beyond.
~~Rumi
Every morning a new arrival.
A joy, a depression, a meanness,
some momentary awareness comes
as an unexpected visitor.
Welcome and entertain them all!
Even if they're a crowd of sorrows,
who violently sweep your house
empty of its furniture,
still, treat each guest honorable.
He may be cleaning you out
for some new delight.
The dark thought, the shame, the malice,
meet them at the door laughing,
and invite them in.
Be grateful for whoever comes,
because each has been sent
as a guide from the beyond.
~~Rumi
Tuesday, March 12, 2013
Mindful
Every day I see or hear something that more or less kills me with delight,
That leaves me like a needle in the haystack of light.
It was what I was born for--to look, to listen,
To lose myself inside this soft world--
To instruct my self over and over in joy, and acclamation.
Nor am I talking about the exceptional,
The fearful, the dreadful, the very extravagant--
But of the ordinary, the common, the very drab, the daily presentations.
Oh, good scholar, I say to myself,
How can you help but grow wise with such teachings as these--
The untrimmable light of the world, the ocean's shine,
The prayers that are made out of grass.
~~Mary Oliver
That leaves me like a needle in the haystack of light.
It was what I was born for--to look, to listen,
To lose myself inside this soft world--
To instruct my self over and over in joy, and acclamation.
Nor am I talking about the exceptional,
The fearful, the dreadful, the very extravagant--
But of the ordinary, the common, the very drab, the daily presentations.
Oh, good scholar, I say to myself,
How can you help but grow wise with such teachings as these--
The untrimmable light of the world, the ocean's shine,
The prayers that are made out of grass.
~~Mary Oliver
Monday, March 11, 2013
From You
It is when we are still
that we know.
It is when we listen
that we hear.
It is when we remember
that we see your light, O God.
From your Stillness
we come.
With your Sound
all life quivers with being.
From You
the light of this moment shines.
Grant us to remember you at the heart of each moment.
Grant us to remember.
"Praying with the Earth" by John Philip Newell
that we know.
It is when we listen
that we hear.
It is when we remember
that we see your light, O God.
From your Stillness
we come.
With your Sound
all life quivers with being.
From You
the light of this moment shines.
Grant us to remember you at the heart of each moment.
Grant us to remember.
"Praying with the Earth" by John Philip Newell
Sunday, March 10, 2013
If. . . . .
If we are to take risks,
to be free,
in the air,
in life,
we have to know
that when we come down from it all,
we're going to be caught,
we're going to be safe.
The great hero is the least visible.
Trust the catcher.
~~Henri Nouwen
to be free,
in the air,
in life,
we have to know
that when we come down from it all,
we're going to be caught,
we're going to be safe.
The great hero is the least visible.
Trust the catcher.
~~Henri Nouwen
Saturday, March 9, 2013
Lint as Lent

WHAT IS LENT?
On the way to All Saints
On the way to All Saints
"Lent Event 2009"a mother
listened to the conversation
between her two children.
One child wondered aloud:
"What is Lent, anyway?"
The sibling responded:
"It's the stuff on your clothes."
Friday, March 8, 2013
Thursday, March 7, 2013
Leaving on a Jet Plane!

Then I will have the adventure of finding the light rail station which is a long walk from the airport. I will take that new contraption to meet my daughters in downtown Seattle! Yay!
Then tomorrow Chuck will fly here. He and I will spend Friday, which is AE's birthday, with her and then we'll spend the weekend in Seattle with our friends Terry and Dennis. We've known Terry since high school, which was over 40 years ago.
Then next week we'll be in our hometown of Bellingham, WA while two young men take care of our pets. We will be seeing Chuck's family, especially his parents who moved into an assisted living facility only a few days ago.
Chuck and I will be staying in the newly-departed family home, with its depleted furniture and other items. We're not sure what we'll find there, though we know there will be beds! Sadly, there will be no tv or internet available.
Wednesday, March 6, 2013
The Soul Wants to Love
Look how the Creator
in the form of a mother or father
can then love the created, a child,
even more than themselves.
Look at the salvation and purpose
a person can find
in that devotion of caring.
A day is too great a force to bear
without the heart open.
Time will slay your body
no matter what,
but with love,
the impetus of your final movements
will make eloquent your demise.
Could God care for the created
more than He cares for Himself?
The soul, and I think any being,
really wants to love,
more than be loved.
-- Hafiz
With thanks to Diane Walker at Contemplative Photography.
in the form of a mother or father
can then love the created, a child,
even more than themselves.
Look at the salvation and purpose
a person can find
in that devotion of caring.
A day is too great a force to bear
without the heart open.
Time will slay your body
no matter what,
but with love,
the impetus of your final movements
will make eloquent your demise.
Could God care for the created
more than He cares for Himself?
The soul, and I think any being,
really wants to love,
more than be loved.
-- Hafiz
With thanks to Diane Walker at Contemplative Photography.
Tuesday, March 5, 2013
Problems!!
We have been thrown into a tizzy with an email this morning from the friend who always house-dog-sits for us when we travel. She cannot be here for us during the upcoming trip to WA State, even though we asked her months ago. In three days we need someone taking care of our pets, because Chuck will depart. (I am leaving the day before, which I have already pre-posted for Thursday.)
Chuck reserved spaces at our vet's kennel, which is expensive and not our first choice for our dogs. We'd prefer someone staying at our house. Calling people and friends today brought frustration and worry. What to do?? Finally, we found the sons of church members who are willing to help us out.
They just left after getting to know our dogs, including leaping Maisie (our Lab/hound mix). One is in college and the other is in high school, and they will take care of the dogs in partnership. They may even sleep here. That makes it nicer for our dogs and for our cat, who will not indicate her pleasure.
Chuck and I feel great relief. Whew!
Monday, March 4, 2013
Avery Pictures
DC and Avery |
Avery and AA |
Avery and Chuck |
Avery and Jan |
Wealth Inequality in America
My daughter KA shared this on Facebook, and I keep thinking about it. Please watch:. Then you can tell me what you think.
Sunday, March 3, 2013
Saturday, March 2, 2013
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